This past week was that dreaded time of the year again, auditions for the spring musical. Don't ask me why we do it so early around these parts, I don't even know, but now they're over. I'm torn about whether or not I'm happy with the results of auditions. It was good going to the auditions to see all of my old friends and realize how much I had missed them, but it was also one of the saddest parts of this year, because as I walked into the auditorium on Monday, I realized that I would be doing this year's musical without one of my greatest friends. I don't know how I'll handle it.
I feel like I did a good job with auditions this year, but I don't really know. All of my friends told me I was really good, but then when the cast list came out I found out I was in chorus again. I shouldn't be upset about this, but I am. I didn't want the lead, but I wanted a part where I could stand out. I don't know what's wrong with me, since I know that our director didn't even put one hundred kids in, and I was lucky enough to actually make it. I don't know. It's just kinda lame.
I've gotta change my attitude before the rehearsals start though, because I remember last year how hard it was to have a good time on stage when there were snotty people (like me this year) being negative all the time. I'm gonna make this the best musical I can, even if I believe I deserved a part. If anything else, I'll show my director that I could have done any part she needed.
