Falling Into Place

It's been rough...I hate saying that because I sound like a whiner...but I don't want to lie. This summer has been, at times, absolutely infuriating. But I've learned something from all of the stuff I have been fighting. The valuable lesson: The Lord is aware of me, He's aware of you, He's aware of all of us.
It's been crazy this summer. I've been hunting for a job with a total of one interview at a place where I was told they would hire anyone... but the thing is that I didn't get the job. It was a call center, so I mean not OVERLY bummed, but still disappointing. I've been trying to start my mission papers since May, with little to zero success... And to top it off I lost contact with one of my best friends since the day school got out.
But the Lord was aware. Every day I started thinking "I can't take much more of this," something would go right that day. I would roll out of bed and go to Institute and be taught something that I needed to hear...something that the Lord prompted my teacher to say for me. I would be sitting moping to myself and get an invite to go do something that would get my mind off the spiral of how miserable I was. The Lord has spent this entire acting through other people in my life to show me how aware He is of me. And even though I didn't handle things as well as I should have, (I have a horrible habit of murmuring, when I should just have the faith to do what is required of me), He is blessing me. Everything is finally falling into place.
No I still don't have a job, or a mission call, but there has been progress, which has been yet another witness of the Lord's awareness of me. I have an appointment with my bishop tomorrow night at six, which means the papers will be started soon. Somehow my best friend started talking to me again, and even though I want to hold a grudge about the lack of communication between us, I can't, and I would feel wrong about it. And with that, there's some definition of what we are, which is amazing now. I didn't want to leave with everything so bad between us, and things are finally giving me a sense of closure there, which is much needed.
Just know, the Lord is aware. He will help you when you don't think you can hold on anymore, He'll show you how you can.