Family

It's times like family vacation that really get me wondering as to how in the world my family will survive eternity together...or more accurately how I will survive eternity with these people. Don't get me wrong, I love these people, but mostly they are best loved at a distance. I know I probably sound like a terrible person, but honestly after a week nonstop with these people I get sick of a lot of the things they do.
Why is it that the child who is the one that parents take the most pride in always gets the short end of the stick. My parents are always telling me what a joy I am to have, how proud they are of me, and what a wonderful person I am. But then, the minute I end up costing money or causing a small inconvenience, or voicing an opinion that disagrees with theirs, it's always what a pain I am. I'm so expensive, I'm the black sheep, or better yet let's just pretend that our annoyance isn't speaking. They say I handle things well. Great, I'm glad that I'm mature enough to handle it when things don't go my way, isn't that supposed to be part of the whole growing up process? Obviously not, because every single one of my other siblings gets EVERYTHING they want whenever they want, because they don't handle things as well, and then I'm shoved to the back and ignored, because "I handle things well." Guess what, I don't. I'm just an actor, who tries to make everyone else happy while inside the pain and anger build up, until I can't take it anymore. I just don't get it. Why am I the one who's being punished for being what my parents consider mature?
This whole summer has been let's see how much we can shove our youngest to the back of everything, while we fuss over everyone else for my parents. The first half of summer my older brother came home early from his mission. Yeah that sucks I understand, that changes Paul's life a lot, and I understand being shoved back a little bit. Then my sister had her second kid, and all attention was focused on her while Zelos struggles to get a grip on the fact that my life will never be the same again. Really, graduating from high school, moving across the country, starting college where you only know three people there, and leaving an amazingly awesome social life behind, that's nothing to even sneeze at apparently. It's all about Paul being a social-missfit, and Nicole having her second child and Jeff havin a daughter and starting graduate school. Oh, you're going to college, great there goes more money down the drain. Good riddance extra baggage we'll see you at Christmas, where there's only a slim chance that you'll even get to come back to a home you love, because Paul really doesn't care, and we're only here to please him, because his life obviously sucks worse than yours.
Oh yeah, I guess I can see why you might be having a hard time going to college, I guess we can let you throw a big party before you leave. Just one party, and oh yeah, make sure you invite Paul, he needs to get out of the house, and he's having a harder time than you are, he needs to go interact with people. No problem Mom and Dad, I understand. No wait, I don't. This is supposed to be my last time hanging out with my friends before I move. MY friends, not Paul's. MY social life, not Paul's. Do you even notice your youngest child screaming out for a little bit of the same love your showing your other children. Of course not, why would you? All I need is your money, not your love. I'm just a big drain on your finances, nothing more, nothing less. It's good to know your place in a family.
I've never in my life wanted to run away from my family and never look back as much as I have this summer. How in the world will I survive eternity with these people? How is this family motivation to even want to make it to the Celestial Kingdom? I don't even know what' worth it anymore.