I pretty much plummeted into the depths of man PMS once again last night, but as I look at everything that's been bothering me in the sunshine, after a great Institute class, I feel like I should be better than this...I'm not yet. I'm working on it, I'm learning to get over the thoughts that keep me from sleeping, and I'm working on everything that's going wrong in my life...but, I just need time. I need time, and I need to stop coasting. I need to serve, I need to love, I need to work, and I need to be busy. Being alone with my thoughts lately has been my biggest source of pain...so that's got to stop.
Life is just easier for me when the sun shines. I can get out of my building and go for a walk, or do whatever...
I discovered last night how much I miss my car...that car is like the love of my life, and I miss it so much...I do. There was never a better way for me to clear my head than hop in the car, crank up the tunes and just drive. I ended up in parts of town I didn't even know existed when I drove...and now I just have to get places my two feet can carry me when I need an escape...someday we'll be united my dear car...someday.
That's why you go on a walk and listen to your iPod. :)
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