Day 2

5 Things I dislike about myself:
1. I'm extremely jealous.  If I like you, I get protective. I don't want to say clingy, but I'm pretty sure it comes across that way.  I just want to spend time with the people that I love. I'm struggling right now with that. I'm just kind of filled with negative feelings right now, even though we never promised each other anything.

2. I have a tendency of pushing people away.  I'm afraid of people.  In general, I have this fear that I'll never measure up to what people want me to be, even though I know that I'm a good guy and I have loyal friends, I fear that when the real trials come they'll leave, so I push them away instead.

3. I don't like that I sometimes choose to put on an act.  I want to be a genuine version of me, but when I get into certain situations, especially around a lot of my family, I feel the need to pretend to be something I'm not, rather than just be myself.

4. I wish that I had spent the first 18 years of my life working on a farm. I don't like the fact that I'm a city kid.  I wish that I had grown up in the country, working hard, so I could be in shape and know how to work hard, and feel like I had marketable skills.

5. I wish that I was a little more masculine.  Sometimes I just feel like every other man in the world secretly considers me not part of the man club... And it's not that I desperately want to be a part of the man club.  I just kind of would like to have a few more guy friends.  Sometimes I need man-time.

Things I like about myself.
1. I am funny.  I was told all through high school by kids in my classes that I was funny, and I never really believed them, but I think I finally am starting to understand that I have some pretty good wit, and I can make other people laugh.

2.  I am loyal.  Once I know someone is there for me, I am fiercely loyal to them.  I will be by your side forever if I know that I am safe with you.

3. I'm loving.  That was the number one thing I learned on my mission, every time I got a compliment from a companion or a leader it was always something about the charity I have or the kindness I exude.

4. Not to get prideful, but I think I'm actually pretty good looking.  I'm tall, I've got a killer smile, overall, I think I'm pretty easy on the eyes.  Not that I've always been this way, if you saw me in puberty with the pubescent mustache, acne, and random razor burn/sliced up face, you would have run the other way, but puberty was good to me.

5. I have a pretty good command of words.  I may not be the greatest writer to ever walk this earth, but darn it, I have a pretty decent ability to weave words together in a way that I consider beautiful, and I've gotten quite a few compliments, so it's not just me.