You Should Be Jealous

I have the coolest sister. I don't know if you know this, but it's pretty much the truest statement ever said. You might think that you may have a cool sister, but I think I have the coolest one, sorry. I don't know how I would have handled this past few weeks without having her and her family here. My family...we're on better terms now. I really am getting along with my Mom a lot better, and I'm not irrationally mad at my dad anymore, I feel fine there too. I dunno though, I just struggle spending a lot of time with these people...except for my sister.
The two of us really should always live semi-close to each other always. This past year has been awesome because we actually have. In elementary school she was honestly my best friend. So what if she's like six years older than me. She's super cool, and I'm so blessed to have her in my life. She's been there this year for me to turn to whenever anything went wrong. At the beginning of the year when I just needed to go somewhere where I felt loved while battling some major depression, her house was always open to me. When my parents didn't send my debit card out in time for me to buy books, she was there to help me until I could pay her back. When I needed a photographer for my Homecoming, she volunteered. When I gave a talk in church, she visited my ward to hear it. When I needed a car, she let me borrow it, until she had a need for it. When said car (Wallace) broke down in the middle of the night she had her husband come help me out. When I said I was craving some snack food, she sent me home with some. She's given me uncounted free meals this semester, and I've loved it. When I just needed to unload on someone about EVERYTHING, she stayed in the Jones parking lot with me and listened until practically midnight. Honestly I would not have survived this semester without her around, and I just wish I were as awesome at being there for her as she is for me.
I think the most amazing thing that she has done for me this year is show by her example, what I truly want in my life. I honestly did not think I wanted a family when I first moved to college. I was miserable, because I was afraid that my whole family would all have their own families, and I would be there in the middle of it, getting dirty looks because I would never be willing to settle down and have a family. I didn't want one. Period. End of story. But watching her family, the interactions between her and her husband sealed in the temple, with their amazing children...there was a light that I really wanted to have in my own life. Being able to spend time with my new nephew and really develop a connection with him, it really made me step back and reevaluate my life, and realize that a family, a functional family, is what I want.
She's amazing. She did almost all of these things without realizing how much they really were saving my life. I know that Heavenly Father put us together as siblings because she really throughout my life has been a true life-saver. And the nice thing is that we can pretty much talk about anything now, which is something I've never really been able to do with anyone before. It's nice to know that I have that ability before really diving into a relationship with anyone else.
She goes home tomorrow, and although I know I'll see her in less than two weeks, I can't help but miss her and her family. I've gone much longer without seeing them, but honestly, I'm so grateful for her, and all the things she's done for me, and yeah I'm just grateful to have her for a sister. I can't imagine life without that relationship, and I hope we can always keep it strong.