Do you know why I love cooking eggs? I'll tell you why, because I don't know if you guessed the right answer or not. Eggs aren't picky when you cook them. With most food, you have to follow a recipe, but eggs, not so much. You can cook them a thousand ways, and guess what, they're still just eggs. It's awesome.
My favorite part about cooking eggs though, is the fact that no matter how fancy you try and get, if you mess up (which I am almost always doomed to do if I try and get fancy), you just swirl it around in the frying pan, and BAM! You've got yourself some scrambled eggs, which taste just like whatever else you were trying to do.
And that's why I love cooking eggs.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
You Should Be Jealous
I have the coolest sister. I don't know if you know this, but it's pretty much the truest statement ever said. You might think that you may have a cool sister, but I think I have the coolest one, sorry. I don't know how I would have handled this past few weeks without having her and her family here. My family...we're on better terms now. I really am getting along with my Mom a lot better, and I'm not irrationally mad at my dad anymore, I feel fine there too. I dunno though, I just struggle spending a lot of time with these people...except for my sister.
The two of us really should always live semi-close to each other always. This past year has been awesome because we actually have. In elementary school she was honestly my best friend. So what if she's like six years older than me. She's super cool, and I'm so blessed to have her in my life. She's been there this year for me to turn to whenever anything went wrong. At the beginning of the year when I just needed to go somewhere where I felt loved while battling some major depression, her house was always open to me. When my parents didn't send my debit card out in time for me to buy books, she was there to help me until I could pay her back. When I needed a photographer for my Homecoming, she volunteered. When I gave a talk in church, she visited my ward to hear it. When I needed a car, she let me borrow it, until she had a need for it. When said car (Wallace) broke down in the middle of the night she had her husband come help me out. When I said I was craving some snack food, she sent me home with some. She's given me uncounted free meals this semester, and I've loved it. When I just needed to unload on someone about EVERYTHING, she stayed in the Jones parking lot with me and listened until practically midnight. Honestly I would not have survived this semester without her around, and I just wish I were as awesome at being there for her as she is for me.
I think the most amazing thing that she has done for me this year is show by her example, what I truly want in my life. I honestly did not think I wanted a family when I first moved to college. I was miserable, because I was afraid that my whole family would all have their own families, and I would be there in the middle of it, getting dirty looks because I would never be willing to settle down and have a family. I didn't want one. Period. End of story. But watching her family, the interactions between her and her husband sealed in the temple, with their amazing children...there was a light that I really wanted to have in my own life. Being able to spend time with my new nephew and really develop a connection with him, it really made me step back and reevaluate my life, and realize that a family, a functional family, is what I want.
She's amazing. She did almost all of these things without realizing how much they really were saving my life. I know that Heavenly Father put us together as siblings because she really throughout my life has been a true life-saver. And the nice thing is that we can pretty much talk about anything now, which is something I've never really been able to do with anyone before. It's nice to know that I have that ability before really diving into a relationship with anyone else.
She goes home tomorrow, and although I know I'll see her in less than two weeks, I can't help but miss her and her family. I've gone much longer without seeing them, but honestly, I'm so grateful for her, and all the things she's done for me, and yeah I'm just grateful to have her for a sister. I can't imagine life without that relationship, and I hope we can always keep it strong.
The two of us really should always live semi-close to each other always. This past year has been awesome because we actually have. In elementary school she was honestly my best friend. So what if she's like six years older than me. She's super cool, and I'm so blessed to have her in my life. She's been there this year for me to turn to whenever anything went wrong. At the beginning of the year when I just needed to go somewhere where I felt loved while battling some major depression, her house was always open to me. When my parents didn't send my debit card out in time for me to buy books, she was there to help me until I could pay her back. When I needed a photographer for my Homecoming, she volunteered. When I gave a talk in church, she visited my ward to hear it. When I needed a car, she let me borrow it, until she had a need for it. When said car (Wallace) broke down in the middle of the night she had her husband come help me out. When I said I was craving some snack food, she sent me home with some. She's given me uncounted free meals this semester, and I've loved it. When I just needed to unload on someone about EVERYTHING, she stayed in the Jones parking lot with me and listened until practically midnight. Honestly I would not have survived this semester without her around, and I just wish I were as awesome at being there for her as she is for me.
I think the most amazing thing that she has done for me this year is show by her example, what I truly want in my life. I honestly did not think I wanted a family when I first moved to college. I was miserable, because I was afraid that my whole family would all have their own families, and I would be there in the middle of it, getting dirty looks because I would never be willing to settle down and have a family. I didn't want one. Period. End of story. But watching her family, the interactions between her and her husband sealed in the temple, with their amazing children...there was a light that I really wanted to have in my own life. Being able to spend time with my new nephew and really develop a connection with him, it really made me step back and reevaluate my life, and realize that a family, a functional family, is what I want.
She's amazing. She did almost all of these things without realizing how much they really were saving my life. I know that Heavenly Father put us together as siblings because she really throughout my life has been a true life-saver. And the nice thing is that we can pretty much talk about anything now, which is something I've never really been able to do with anyone before. It's nice to know that I have that ability before really diving into a relationship with anyone else.
She goes home tomorrow, and although I know I'll see her in less than two weeks, I can't help but miss her and her family. I've gone much longer without seeing them, but honestly, I'm so grateful for her, and all the things she's done for me, and yeah I'm just grateful to have her for a sister. I can't imagine life without that relationship, and I hope we can always keep it strong.
My Mean Side
There's this post on facebook, with all the comments being something along the lines of ":(" So I'm really tempted to like the status. I won't because that would truly make me an awful person, but I'm tempted to...yeah bad idea.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Did I Really...
rant on Christmas day? Wow, I'm sorry about that, I didn't come on to wish you a Merry Christmas, oh no, I came on and ranted...sorry guys. I just looked back over the dates and realized, and I really do feel guilty about that. So yeah, to make up for it...
Merry two days after Christmas my blog readers!!! Thanks for being awesome!!!
Merry two days after Christmas my blog readers!!! Thanks for being awesome!!!
Last One For Tonight (I Hope)
Okay, remember that rant I had about high school drama...probably not, it wasn't that great of a rant...but yeah, it's only a few posts down, go refresh your memory if you forgot it.
So I figured out why that bothers me, off and on relationships. I'm almost positive that the off and on couple in my life has used the "I love you" phrase. It just bothers me that that phrase can be used and then thrown away and reused on someone else. Giving up on a relationship when things get bad isn't love. Love is working through things when hard times come. "Love is like oxygen, love is a many splendid thing, all you need is love." Love is great, but it also requires a lot of effort, and so it just bothers me when I see people use the "I love you" phrase (yeah that's a dumb way to refer to it) when they don't honestly mean it. It makes me scared about the actual usage of that phrase. Love is something that doesn't die, so I get annoyed when people say that and then aren't willing to work. Saying those three words leads to work on both sides, and so I dunno, be careful about using that phrase. At least be careful around me, it's a serious business.
There are exceptions of course, but I dunno, that was just a continuation of the last rant I guess, and maybe I'm completely off base. Just some ideas.
So I figured out why that bothers me, off and on relationships. I'm almost positive that the off and on couple in my life has used the "I love you" phrase. It just bothers me that that phrase can be used and then thrown away and reused on someone else. Giving up on a relationship when things get bad isn't love. Love is working through things when hard times come. "Love is like oxygen, love is a many splendid thing, all you need is love." Love is great, but it also requires a lot of effort, and so it just bothers me when I see people use the "I love you" phrase (yeah that's a dumb way to refer to it) when they don't honestly mean it. It makes me scared about the actual usage of that phrase. Love is something that doesn't die, so I get annoyed when people say that and then aren't willing to work. Saying those three words leads to work on both sides, and so I dunno, be careful about using that phrase. At least be careful around me, it's a serious business.
There are exceptions of course, but I dunno, that was just a continuation of the last rant I guess, and maybe I'm completely off base. Just some ideas.
Feeling Sappy.
I need to sleep now...I know it's only like 10:15 right now...but I need to sleep, and get over "my ridiculous obsession with love." Just kidding I won't actually sleep that away, but hopefully I won't be writing such sappy things after I have a good sleep. I have a reputation to keep up (says the man who just quoted Moulin Rouge... :D). Seriously though, something funny happens to my brain when I'm tired, and I'll probably regret posting everything I posted tonight. Ah well, it's cool. I've regretted other posts more...I think. We'll find out tomorrow.
Random Post
Mitch, Rachel and I had a conversation about how excited some of us were for marriage, and that conversation started this list going, and heck, I share everything else on this blog, why not?
Reasons I can’t wait for marriage:
• Being loved by someone and having a complete honest relationship where I’m accepted for my past.
• Watching movies together, leaning into each other, physical closeness that I don’t feel comfortable giving out now.
• Having children. Every time I hear a baby cry, or a child laugh, I honestly cannot wait until the day I have my own.
• Supporting a family. I want to do all I can to keep our family above water without you having to work.
• Being able to be with you while wearing pajamas, and not thinking twice about it, because it’s normal.
• Seeing your face and hearing your voice everyday.
• Knowing that we are together forever. For better or for worse, we will always have each other to lean on and to love.
• Holding hands, wherever we go, we’ll hold hands.
• I won’t ever be lonely again. I’ll be able to enjoy family vacations, because I’ll always have you with me, and I won’t have to watch my older siblings being happy while I wait for the day when you and I can finally be together with our families.
• Being part of a team. Learning our strengths and our weaknesses together and working together to turn our weaknesses into strengths.
• Going to church together, and sitting together. Sharing the gospel together.
• Family Home Evening with our own family. Trying to strengthen our family so that we don’t turn out dysfunctional
• Praying with you. Praying for our children, praying for ourselves, praying for our leaders, and our parents and siblings.
• Being able to look you in the eyes and tell you that I love you. Not fearing that that will scare you away, because I’ll know you love me too.
Don't worry, I still plan on serving a mission. I just want to look forward to the part of my life that will last forever. And these are the things I really am looking forward to.
Reasons I can’t wait for marriage:
• Being loved by someone and having a complete honest relationship where I’m accepted for my past.
• Watching movies together, leaning into each other, physical closeness that I don’t feel comfortable giving out now.
• Having children. Every time I hear a baby cry, or a child laugh, I honestly cannot wait until the day I have my own.
• Supporting a family. I want to do all I can to keep our family above water without you having to work.
• Being able to be with you while wearing pajamas, and not thinking twice about it, because it’s normal.
• Seeing your face and hearing your voice everyday.
• Knowing that we are together forever. For better or for worse, we will always have each other to lean on and to love.
• Holding hands, wherever we go, we’ll hold hands.
• I won’t ever be lonely again. I’ll be able to enjoy family vacations, because I’ll always have you with me, and I won’t have to watch my older siblings being happy while I wait for the day when you and I can finally be together with our families.
• Being part of a team. Learning our strengths and our weaknesses together and working together to turn our weaknesses into strengths.
• Going to church together, and sitting together. Sharing the gospel together.
• Family Home Evening with our own family. Trying to strengthen our family so that we don’t turn out dysfunctional
• Praying with you. Praying for our children, praying for ourselves, praying for our leaders, and our parents and siblings.
• Being able to look you in the eyes and tell you that I love you. Not fearing that that will scare you away, because I’ll know you love me too.
Don't worry, I still plan on serving a mission. I just want to look forward to the part of my life that will last forever. And these are the things I really am looking forward to.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Just to Clarify
I didn't befriend just younger people, I've spent some time with my friends that are my age or older, and I loved every minute. Seeing my Bible Study buddies, Emily and Garret for a few hours. Talking Mormon politics with Kayti. Debating our "Twin Powers" with Kali. Being a pain in the rear for Laura. Playing Apples to Apples with Ashley and Mary Caroline, and seeing all the rest of that group...it was a blast, and I realized how much I really miss you guys.
Also I really miss most of my high school friends, it's just the ones who pull me into drama that annoy me. So yeah Ashley if you're reading this, it's not you, or any of the rest of our group...except for well I'm guessing you can guess.
Anyways just wanted to clarify there. I'm happy to see most of my friends again, and I can't wait for more crazy adventures this break.
Also I really miss most of my high school friends, it's just the ones who pull me into drama that annoy me. So yeah Ashley if you're reading this, it's not you, or any of the rest of our group...except for well I'm guessing you can guess.
Anyways just wanted to clarify there. I'm happy to see most of my friends again, and I can't wait for more crazy adventures this break.
Am I An Awful Person?
I hate high school drama. Allow me to rephrase that, I hate high school drama with an all consuming fiery passion that could not be quenched with all the water on this earth. So am I an awful person for not wanting to get involved in it. In high school I loved the gossip, and let me tell you, I still like being an insider on most things, the little things like who likes whom...but seriously I draw a line somewhere, and that somewhere is off-and-on relationships. They're dumb, and I hate them. If you're gonna break up, BREAK UP. Seriously, don't call me and tell me you want to break up again, with the same guy you've called me about at least seven other times. Just end it, and don't talk to me. Don't go back, just so you can call me in a month to tell me that (big surprise) you're breaking up again. Don't expect my sympathy. You had heaps of it the first time. Quite a bit of sympathy the second time. The third time I was just wondering when you would get back together again. The fourth time...it got old. The fifth time I wanted to throw a party because you said it was "over for good." Okay time number six...this is just plain dumb. I'm sorry, but I'm getting really tired of this garbage, and I have no sympathy for you anymore. If you keep going back to the same guy, and then breaking up with him, there's one conclusion I draw, and it's kind of mean.
Second off, this guy is my best friend now, and you expect pity from me? What are you thinking?! Seriously don't throw me in the middle of this. I'm sticking bros before...well yeah never mind, your not that bad...but honestly don't talk about my best friend to me. I don't want to know before he does that you're breaking up with him. That's low, and that makes me feel like an even worse person then not feeling pity for you.
Just an FYI here. If there's one thing I hate worse than off-and-on relationships, it's girls that string guys along. Just because you have some stupid low self-esteem issue that makes you want to have a guy trailing you all the time...you're absolute...yeah if I were a cusser you would know how I truly felt, but I'm sure from that you can assume what I mean. I know that's harsh, and yeah I probably am an awful person for even thinking that, but honestly, don't do that. Don't! It's low.
Yeah, sorry for ranting so much, but I'm just really fed up with this right now. That's what I get for befriending all younger people while I was in high school. Come home from a semester of college where I didn't deal with this, and face it all over again...
Second off, this guy is my best friend now, and you expect pity from me? What are you thinking?! Seriously don't throw me in the middle of this. I'm sticking bros before...well yeah never mind, your not that bad...but honestly don't talk about my best friend to me. I don't want to know before he does that you're breaking up with him. That's low, and that makes me feel like an even worse person then not feeling pity for you.
Just an FYI here. If there's one thing I hate worse than off-and-on relationships, it's girls that string guys along. Just because you have some stupid low self-esteem issue that makes you want to have a guy trailing you all the time...you're absolute...yeah if I were a cusser you would know how I truly felt, but I'm sure from that you can assume what I mean. I know that's harsh, and yeah I probably am an awful person for even thinking that, but honestly, don't do that. Don't! It's low.
Yeah, sorry for ranting so much, but I'm just really fed up with this right now. That's what I get for befriending all younger people while I was in high school. Come home from a semester of college where I didn't deal with this, and face it all over again...
Monday, December 6, 2010
Post 100
That's right readers, this is my 100th post on this blog! I can't believe that some of you have stuck with me and read every single post! Thank you so much, it really means a lot that you consider what I have to say worth your time. I hope that as I continue writing you will still be around as my readers, because honestly, it means a lot. So just wanted to say thank you for reading the 100 posts on this blog, and if you've read more than just this blog, and ventured into my high school years. That's pretty impressive, and I really, REALLY appreciate that! So thank you for reading!
Talents: A Refresher Course.
I'm writing this for my own benefit. I'm sorry about that, I just figured I needed to think about talents again, because being here at college, I've realized just how talented everyone else is. There are so many amazing singer, pianists, writers, missionaries, everything. It's amazing, and I can't help but stand back and watch as these amazing people show what they can do, while I sit in the background, envious of the talent. How did they get so blessed with such amazing gifts? I shouldn't be so jealous, but I am. I wish I had talents like their's...
But my Heavenly Father wouldn't send me here without talents. But He also would not send me here with my talents already developed, where's room for progression there? If it didn't take work, it would be pointless. It's like the parable in Matthew. I know that in that parable a talent is technically a quantity of money, but just stay with me for a second. Every single servant was trusted with a certain amount. So what if they weren't equally distributed, they each had been trusted with something important from their Lord, just as we have. So one of them brought ten back, another brought five back. They were both rewarded because they put forth the effort to show their Lord how important their talents were to them. However, the one who did no work with what his Lord trusted him with, he was punished. Its not because he brought a low quantity of talents back. That didn't matter, it was the fact that he did absolutely nothing with his gift, but bury it. Who does that with a talent trusted to them from God? I certainly hope I don't, but I guess thinking about it, I do.
I've been told all my life that if I would just practice piano, I would actually have a shot at being semi-decent. Apparently I don't have a terrible voice either, but I dunno, I just try to avoid sharing that as well. My writing...I mean I have a blog, but I don't share it much, even though that's a way of magnifying my talents as well. I dunno. I just don't want to be that third servant who buried such an amazing gift, without having gratitude for it. That's the worst thing I feel I could do.
This song here reminds me of talents...just because you don't have the talent you want, doesn't mean you aren't talented. And honestly the talents you get, are the things that you are truly sent here to magnify. Think what this world would be like if we didn't have Handel who magnified the talents his Lord gave him.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iY_XEJeXbDo&playnext=1&list=PLEBFCCCB375288913&index=25
Enjoy this song.
But my Heavenly Father wouldn't send me here without talents. But He also would not send me here with my talents already developed, where's room for progression there? If it didn't take work, it would be pointless. It's like the parable in Matthew. I know that in that parable a talent is technically a quantity of money, but just stay with me for a second. Every single servant was trusted with a certain amount. So what if they weren't equally distributed, they each had been trusted with something important from their Lord, just as we have. So one of them brought ten back, another brought five back. They were both rewarded because they put forth the effort to show their Lord how important their talents were to them. However, the one who did no work with what his Lord trusted him with, he was punished. Its not because he brought a low quantity of talents back. That didn't matter, it was the fact that he did absolutely nothing with his gift, but bury it. Who does that with a talent trusted to them from God? I certainly hope I don't, but I guess thinking about it, I do.
I've been told all my life that if I would just practice piano, I would actually have a shot at being semi-decent. Apparently I don't have a terrible voice either, but I dunno, I just try to avoid sharing that as well. My writing...I mean I have a blog, but I don't share it much, even though that's a way of magnifying my talents as well. I dunno. I just don't want to be that third servant who buried such an amazing gift, without having gratitude for it. That's the worst thing I feel I could do.
This song here reminds me of talents...just because you don't have the talent you want, doesn't mean you aren't talented. And honestly the talents you get, are the things that you are truly sent here to magnify. Think what this world would be like if we didn't have Handel who magnified the talents his Lord gave him.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iY_XEJeXbDo&playnext=1&list=PLEBFCCCB375288913&index=25
Enjoy this song.
If You Care.
Every once in a while, I try to slip out 'cool' phrases, so people know that I'm legit...mainly I just sound dumb when I do that though.
Friday, December 3, 2010
Caught in a Funk
What do you do when nothing seems to be going right? You have so many great ideas as to what you want to do, but you're just having an off day, week, month, year (hopefully not the last two), and you don't truly want to do anything. I know, it really sucks being in this situation, and it's hard to know how to get out of it. So how do you do it?
There's always a voice somewhere in your mind whispering that the things you want to do, just aren't possible. That beautiful girl won't notice you, let alone actually be able to love you, so just give up. Being a writer, it's impossible to break into that business, and besides, your ideas are okay, but honestly, no one but you likes them, everyone else is just nice to you, give up already. Your family is a mess, you've all become adults, and none of you is willing to change, so as much as you want a happy celestial family, it's not gonna happen; give up. You honestly can't help other people with what you write, it just won't help. Why haven't you given up already? You're useless, and there isn't a single good thing about you. GIVE UP!
Taking this from a religious point of view first, I'll tell you some of the things that I've used to get myself out of my funks in life. First off, I've been taught all of my life that I have been saved by God for this time to come to earth. My Heavenly Father knew that the world would be in a weak spiritual state, and it would take some of his strongest children to stand up against Satan in this day, when he has so much power over the children of God. This same concept applies to each and every person on this earth right now. God has saved you for this day, because he sees your power, your strength. He knows that you can stand against Satan, and stand on his side in this world that is falling apart.
With that in mind, the other thing I've been taught, is that Satan is the one responsible for placing all the "give up" thoughts in your head. It is up to you how you respond, but Satan is always there waiting for your guard to be let down when you are in a place of change, or pain. Moving to college, for example, was the time that Satan saw his greatest opportunity to hit me. Heck he pretty much had me beat for most of this semester, and it's only now that I'm beginning to apply these things to my life. If God has saved me for this day, then I have the power to say no to being told to give up. I am a child of God, and that gives me the ability to progress. I can be a writer. I can have love and happiness in my life. And I can strengthen my family. I will not give up on writing to help others. It's up to my readers whether or not you decide that what I say is applicable to you or not. I'm just doing the best I can, and hoping and praying that it will help.
Heck, I personally believe that Satan targets those with the greatest potential, more than others, so if you feel like you should just give up. DON'T!!! If Satan is working that hard on you, then it's because he too knows your potential to do good, and wants to stop it. You could be the next great actor or actress, who could influence the world for good. You could go into medicine and help discover the cure for cancer, or any other terrible disease. You could write a novel that might change one person's life (and even changing one person's life for the better is proof that staying on the path of hard work is always worth it). You could do any number of things that Satan just doesn't want to happen. So why are you giving up. You have the ability to change the world. Go out there and make something happen.
Now, I'll try and approach this a different way. What does giving up actually do for you. Sure it's easy, but think about your heroes in life. Were their lives honestly easy? I bet they weren't. Don't you strive to be like these heroes? Then become like them, don't give up. They probably didn't either, even though the world was most likely screaming against them that their dreams were not possible.
And now a song for inspiration. Katy Perry's "Firework," if you haven't heard it, find some way to listen to it. It really, honestly has been something I've listened to on my bad days, and it surprisingly does motivate me to go out and be that firework. I told you earlier that music really influences me. It does, and this song is among my favorites, because despite everything Katy Perry may or may not be, this song pushes me forward to follow my dreams and be that firework that can change the world. So can you, so go out there and don't give up. Become the person you feel like you should be.
There's always a voice somewhere in your mind whispering that the things you want to do, just aren't possible. That beautiful girl won't notice you, let alone actually be able to love you, so just give up. Being a writer, it's impossible to break into that business, and besides, your ideas are okay, but honestly, no one but you likes them, everyone else is just nice to you, give up already. Your family is a mess, you've all become adults, and none of you is willing to change, so as much as you want a happy celestial family, it's not gonna happen; give up. You honestly can't help other people with what you write, it just won't help. Why haven't you given up already? You're useless, and there isn't a single good thing about you. GIVE UP!
Taking this from a religious point of view first, I'll tell you some of the things that I've used to get myself out of my funks in life. First off, I've been taught all of my life that I have been saved by God for this time to come to earth. My Heavenly Father knew that the world would be in a weak spiritual state, and it would take some of his strongest children to stand up against Satan in this day, when he has so much power over the children of God. This same concept applies to each and every person on this earth right now. God has saved you for this day, because he sees your power, your strength. He knows that you can stand against Satan, and stand on his side in this world that is falling apart.
With that in mind, the other thing I've been taught, is that Satan is the one responsible for placing all the "give up" thoughts in your head. It is up to you how you respond, but Satan is always there waiting for your guard to be let down when you are in a place of change, or pain. Moving to college, for example, was the time that Satan saw his greatest opportunity to hit me. Heck he pretty much had me beat for most of this semester, and it's only now that I'm beginning to apply these things to my life. If God has saved me for this day, then I have the power to say no to being told to give up. I am a child of God, and that gives me the ability to progress. I can be a writer. I can have love and happiness in my life. And I can strengthen my family. I will not give up on writing to help others. It's up to my readers whether or not you decide that what I say is applicable to you or not. I'm just doing the best I can, and hoping and praying that it will help.
Heck, I personally believe that Satan targets those with the greatest potential, more than others, so if you feel like you should just give up. DON'T!!! If Satan is working that hard on you, then it's because he too knows your potential to do good, and wants to stop it. You could be the next great actor or actress, who could influence the world for good. You could go into medicine and help discover the cure for cancer, or any other terrible disease. You could write a novel that might change one person's life (and even changing one person's life for the better is proof that staying on the path of hard work is always worth it). You could do any number of things that Satan just doesn't want to happen. So why are you giving up. You have the ability to change the world. Go out there and make something happen.
Now, I'll try and approach this a different way. What does giving up actually do for you. Sure it's easy, but think about your heroes in life. Were their lives honestly easy? I bet they weren't. Don't you strive to be like these heroes? Then become like them, don't give up. They probably didn't either, even though the world was most likely screaming against them that their dreams were not possible.
And now a song for inspiration. Katy Perry's "Firework," if you haven't heard it, find some way to listen to it. It really, honestly has been something I've listened to on my bad days, and it surprisingly does motivate me to go out and be that firework. I told you earlier that music really influences me. It does, and this song is among my favorites, because despite everything Katy Perry may or may not be, this song pushes me forward to follow my dreams and be that firework that can change the world. So can you, so go out there and don't give up. Become the person you feel like you should be.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Surprise!!
Yeah, so remember that roommate who I said I didn't want to come...he's home. But he SWEPT the kitchen floor. Like legit, he helped on cleaning day!! Truly amazing, and now I'm feeling guilty for doubting, but yeah. The two roommates who I wasn't actually expecting to help are the ones who have today...what is going on?
Yeah I know, crazy times, but yeah I honestly can't believe what's going on here. It's pretty amazing!
Yeah I know, crazy times, but yeah I honestly can't believe what's going on here. It's pretty amazing!
It's Like a Holiday...sort of.
CLEANING DAY!!!!
I actually, honestly love cleaning...for a certain amount of time. There's just something nice about doing some work and actually seeing the immediate results. I LOVE it. I know "your generation is so obsessed with instant results," but seriously is that a bad thing. I mean hard work with results that aren't immediate, but are awesome. I love doing that too, but the real hard work where there are results. I can't help but prefer that, because you can actually see that what you are doing is worth it.
That's why I love cleaning. You start with this mess, and you move a couple of things. You can tell that a little has changed, there's still a lot left, but hey you can already see results. Then you really just let yourself go, and you see all these awesome results. The stove doesn't have grossness caked on. The bathroom floor...never mind you don't want to know about the bathroom floor (I'm trying to remember my new audience). My bed is made, my pictures are all hung up, and sticking well. My stuff is where I can find it. Dishes are done. Everything looks pretty good. I mean I still have another bathroom floor to mop...and a kitchen to mop, but I dunno. I love cleaning day.
Everyone kind of makes fun of me when they hear how excited I am to just sit down and clean my apartment, but honestly, I love it so much. As long as it stays clean, that is. At least for a day or two. Please roommate (you know which one you are). Just don't come home tonight, I've been working, and I really want to see it stay nice...just for tonight. I really like having a clean environment, just sayin'.
Ah well, there's still work to be done before institute, so I guess I better go.
I actually, honestly love cleaning...for a certain amount of time. There's just something nice about doing some work and actually seeing the immediate results. I LOVE it. I know "your generation is so obsessed with instant results," but seriously is that a bad thing. I mean hard work with results that aren't immediate, but are awesome. I love doing that too, but the real hard work where there are results. I can't help but prefer that, because you can actually see that what you are doing is worth it.
That's why I love cleaning. You start with this mess, and you move a couple of things. You can tell that a little has changed, there's still a lot left, but hey you can already see results. Then you really just let yourself go, and you see all these awesome results. The stove doesn't have grossness caked on. The bathroom floor...never mind you don't want to know about the bathroom floor (I'm trying to remember my new audience). My bed is made, my pictures are all hung up, and sticking well. My stuff is where I can find it. Dishes are done. Everything looks pretty good. I mean I still have another bathroom floor to mop...and a kitchen to mop, but I dunno. I love cleaning day.
Everyone kind of makes fun of me when they hear how excited I am to just sit down and clean my apartment, but honestly, I love it so much. As long as it stays clean, that is. At least for a day or two. Please roommate (you know which one you are). Just don't come home tonight, I've been working, and I really want to see it stay nice...just for tonight. I really like having a clean environment, just sayin'.
Ah well, there's still work to be done before institute, so I guess I better go.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Shenanigans with Sarah
So aside from my complaints about facebook, Sarah and I have been kind of just hanging out in her apartment for about...I dunno, possibly an hour. Yeah it's been fun. Music parties are the BEST!! For serious, we've gone from Britney Spears, Katy Perry, Lady Gaga, Colors (favorite band EVER, just a BTW there), All-American Rejects, and Miley Cyrus. College partying. So much better than ever expected. The best of course is cranking "Party in the USA." You just can't get much better than that. Surprised that no one has come in to tell us to turn it off yet. Whatevs.
FACEBOOK!!!
So I'm sitting here with my pal Sarah, and we're both on facebook. Guess what, facebook is being dumb. I know, big surprise. But seriously, it's telling me I have three notifications and when I click on them, I can't see any of the comments that I apparently have on my status...WHAT IS THIS????
And then we're debating over La's status, because on my newsfeed he definitely has a new status, but she checked for it, and it's just not there on her facebook...again I ask...WHAT IS THIS????
However I have now seen after the comment and I quote: "YAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D"...yeah I had to log out and sign back in...was it worth it? I guess so, yeah.
And then we're debating over La's status, because on my newsfeed he definitely has a new status, but she checked for it, and it's just not there on her facebook...again I ask...WHAT IS THIS????
However I have now seen after the comment and I quote: "YAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D"...yeah I had to log out and sign back in...was it worth it? I guess so, yeah.
DECEMBER!!!
That's right folks, it is now officially the month of December. I love this time of year, especially here at school. There's snow here, lot's of snow, and it's BEAUTIFUL outside. Every time I walk outside, I just can't help but stare around at all the snow, there's so much!! I mean snow does have it's drawbacks, but I still love it, but seriously, the whole scraping windows and shoveling snow. I don't even know how to do that!! Although I don't have a house or a car, so I don't have to worry about that.
You know what December also means? It means that November is over. Yeah I know, that's a shocker right there. But seriously it means that all the stress of writing so much in a month is over. I didn't actually finish my book. I finished 50,000 words, which is approximately, you know, the first part of my book...but yeah not anywhere near where this book was meant to end. But I'm so stinking excited to keep it going, because honestly so much unexpected happened, and so much has changed since the last time I wrote it! Holy cow, I love what some of my characters have become. Celeste, Ben, and Sam. I love them. Well not really Celeste, but I love where she went. I'm really excited for Kratos to show up, more Jeffrey, Iolana, and Zak time. Ivan could be fun, and Roxanne and Chrono...I dunno about them. There's still so much that can happen in the next part of the book. That's so exciting to think of where these characters will go. And Zelos and Jessica. I LOVE them. I need to go back and revise it, developing their relationship some more so that the ending of part one doesn't seem so sudden, but I still love it so much!
Another fun thing about December, I feel totally at home in Jones now. Like I have legit friends who aren't just, to quote Katy Perry, "fair-weather friends." These people are legit, and I love them. So yeah I finally really feel at home here, and it's awesome. Shame it took about a semester to really get this comfortable, but seriously I love it here. And best part is...LUMBERJACK PARTY ON FRIDAY!!!! Yeah I'm stoked!!!!
Of course the best part of December is, of course, the Christmas spirit. I just love everything about Christmas. Jones Hall readers, seriously we should do a secret Santa, but you know with the people we actually know...otherwise it would be awkward...but how do you work that out? Got any ideas?
Yeah Hooray for December!!!
You know what December also means? It means that November is over. Yeah I know, that's a shocker right there. But seriously it means that all the stress of writing so much in a month is over. I didn't actually finish my book. I finished 50,000 words, which is approximately, you know, the first part of my book...but yeah not anywhere near where this book was meant to end. But I'm so stinking excited to keep it going, because honestly so much unexpected happened, and so much has changed since the last time I wrote it! Holy cow, I love what some of my characters have become. Celeste, Ben, and Sam. I love them. Well not really Celeste, but I love where she went. I'm really excited for Kratos to show up, more Jeffrey, Iolana, and Zak time. Ivan could be fun, and Roxanne and Chrono...I dunno about them. There's still so much that can happen in the next part of the book. That's so exciting to think of where these characters will go. And Zelos and Jessica. I LOVE them. I need to go back and revise it, developing their relationship some more so that the ending of part one doesn't seem so sudden, but I still love it so much!
Another fun thing about December, I feel totally at home in Jones now. Like I have legit friends who aren't just, to quote Katy Perry, "fair-weather friends." These people are legit, and I love them. So yeah I finally really feel at home here, and it's awesome. Shame it took about a semester to really get this comfortable, but seriously I love it here. And best part is...LUMBERJACK PARTY ON FRIDAY!!!! Yeah I'm stoked!!!!
Of course the best part of December is, of course, the Christmas spirit. I just love everything about Christmas. Jones Hall readers, seriously we should do a secret Santa, but you know with the people we actually know...otherwise it would be awkward...but how do you work that out? Got any ideas?
Yeah Hooray for December!!!
Monday, November 29, 2010
Mammoth of a Story
So I just barely realized how intense my story is. There's at least one HUGE book before the one I'm working on now, and the one I'm working on now has so much that is involved, that I might end it earlier then originally planned. I think it'll end in an entirely different way then planned...I'm trying to make sure that this one is just reasonably sized. Where I think I'm ending it could be the end of my first book...although it might just be the end of part one of book one (written-wise, not chronologically-wise). I dunno. I'm kinda surprised at where I feel like it should end, but if that's what I still feel is right when I get there, then that's where I'll end it...that would suck though.
Expectations
I have not met a single person this year who did not struggle in some way coming to college. I think all of us expected to come to college and suddenly life would be completely different. Our insecurities would vanish, we would make the best friends of our lives in the first five minutes, and every single day from the very first night we were here, we would be partying all the time. At least, you know, those were my expectations.
Life doesn't work out that way. Life will always still be just life. College is awesome, and I officially love it, but I never in high school planned on giving myself time to adjust. I was supposed to come to college, be awesome, popular, spiritual, cool, dating, you know all that good stuff. But life wasn't made to be easy.
I've been thinking about it a lot, and honestly I think the problem I had was I thought I was the outsider. Heck I moved here from the other side of the country, and people weren't bending over backwards to help me. What is this? I was so dumb. Honestly if I had spent those first months trying to help other people with this difficult adjustment in their life, I would have probably enjoyed my first couple months here so much more. I think the thing we all need to remember is that everyone is struggling in someway, and the best way to get over your own struggles is to help someone else with theirs, so that's my plan.
I hope you got some sort of insight out of this if you're in a place where you still aren't happy with college prospects. When life stops being about you searching for personal happiness and starts being about helping others find happiness, you become happy. It's an intriguing irony to me, but I guess we came here for the purpose of helping one another, so just keep that in mind. I'll try my hardest to do the same.
Life doesn't work out that way. Life will always still be just life. College is awesome, and I officially love it, but I never in high school planned on giving myself time to adjust. I was supposed to come to college, be awesome, popular, spiritual, cool, dating, you know all that good stuff. But life wasn't made to be easy.
I've been thinking about it a lot, and honestly I think the problem I had was I thought I was the outsider. Heck I moved here from the other side of the country, and people weren't bending over backwards to help me. What is this? I was so dumb. Honestly if I had spent those first months trying to help other people with this difficult adjustment in their life, I would have probably enjoyed my first couple months here so much more. I think the thing we all need to remember is that everyone is struggling in someway, and the best way to get over your own struggles is to help someone else with theirs, so that's my plan.
I hope you got some sort of insight out of this if you're in a place where you still aren't happy with college prospects. When life stops being about you searching for personal happiness and starts being about helping others find happiness, you become happy. It's an intriguing irony to me, but I guess we came here for the purpose of helping one another, so just keep that in mind. I'll try my hardest to do the same.
Under Pressure
I now have college girls reading my blog...like at least five (possibly more) of them. That's some major pressure there, why did I advertise that I have a blog? I don't actually know. I just know that now I feel required to sound more interesting...we'll see if that actually works out. Ah well.
Honestly though I'm just excited to know I have readers, so I won't complain at all. And the pressure is a good thing, so yeah, thanks for reading! Also a big thanks to my non-college girl readers. I appreciate your reading of my blog too!
Honestly though I'm just excited to know I have readers, so I won't complain at all. And the pressure is a good thing, so yeah, thanks for reading! Also a big thanks to my non-college girl readers. I appreciate your reading of my blog too!
Thursday, November 25, 2010
A Thanksgiving That I Want to Stay With Me Forever
So it's been a day. I won't describe it as great, but I would not call this day a bad one. It was a day, eventful, and I guess it was fun...once I got over the initial feelings I had at the beginning of the day. Overall though, I'm grateful for the day I had today.
Okay, this morning was not great. I'll admit it right up front. This morning was actually one of the top five worst mornings...ever. I mean I woke up at eight, when my alarm went off. That was actually the brightest moment in the morning. And I hate waking up. I was planning on hopping right out of bed, eating a fantastic breakfast, and then heading over to the Lundstrom to get my laundry done. Well the plan faltered when I woke up from a dream where my roommate, Bryce, who had left last night, was murdered on his way home, and a serial killer stolen his room key. When I woke up, I KNEW that the serial killer was in my apartment with me, waiting to jump me the minute I got out of my bedroom. It took me an hour (no joke, I'm that paranoid) to finally convince myself to climb out of bed and take a shower. So after my shower, during which I couldn't help picturing some serial killer wandering around in my apartment, I throw on some gym shorts and the thinnest T-shirt I own so that while I'm doing my laundry I can go across the hall to workout in the fitness center. Yeah that was a bad idea, shoulda thought that through when it's 5 degrees outside, and there's snow everywhere.
Anyways on my way out of the apartment, I think to myself, "hey, you know what, I should just grab my toothbrush and toothpaste and brush my teeth in the Lundstrom, because I still haven't eaten breakfast...oh yeah and my belt so I can change there too..." I don't think I was fully coherent at this moment, because I dunno where the bathrooms are in the Lundstrom. And besides, I told you this already, but I am PARANOID. There's no way I could handle changing in a public bathroom when I still suspect there's some serial killer wandering around the SLC trying to kill me. Heck I hate public bathrooms when I'm not alone on campus with some deranged (and I guess I should mention, imaginary) psycho. They're just creepy. I can't help but picture myself being murdered in public bathrooms...especially the ones on campus. Call me crazy. I probably am a little bit. I'm still really glad that I wasn't coherent, because I swear that that was the first thing I was really grateful for this morning.
So I trudge across campus in my gym shorts, t-shirt, coat, and shoes. It's FREEZING. I don't think I've ever been that cold in my life. And I'm lugging this HUGE laundry basket, which is just awkwardly shaped, and I have my backpack with all the laundry soap weighing down my back...and I'm legitimately FREEZING. I know I said that, but seriously, it was COLD people. And I'm trudging through the snow, and it's up over my ankles, which means, snow in the shoes...not pleasant. It was just an uncomfortably cold experience.
Okay this narrative, it's long, I'm sorry. It was a long day. And if you don't care, just skip this post...seriously I just wanted to update, because my reader base...it's kind of expanded, and I don't want to let anyone down...although endlessly long posts might be a let down. I dunno. Sorry for the random tangent.
So I finally make my way to the Lundstrom and begin my laundry. It costs me $7 to do my laundry. $7! Yeah that's not cool. So I'm upset, because that's a lot of money for a poor college student. Plus I'm on campus, on Thanksgiving, and I'm the only living soul left in my building...not cool. So I load up the washers with all of my clothes and then go to check on the fitness room, but I hear the treadmill running, and I do not like working out with other people...it's just awkward. I don't even go in, I just go check my mailbox, and I'm REALLY creeped out, because the lights are ALL turned off...and yeah, there's a serial killer out there who wants to kill me. Not okay. So I check my mailbox, and there are letters for people who don't even live in our apartment...lame. I go back to my laundry, and fortunately had time to blog-stalk others while I waited for whoever was in the fitness center to leave.
I change out the laundry and then head over to the fitness center again. I can't hear anyone in there, so I pull out my keycard, and let myself in. I drop all of my pocket stuff over by the TV, turn on the TV and watch "Kung-Fu Panda," which just happened to be on TV. It was kind of relaxing, because I wasn't as panicked about the serial killer with background noise and an animated cartoon on TV, it's just harder to be paranoid, when the worst coming at you is a very unrealistic animated leopard who knows karate. Yeah you don't intimidate me, because I know you aren't real. So I finish up working out, go to pick up my stuff, and realize that my keycard is not with the rest of my stuff. Umm, here's where I'm confused. How does my keycard manage to wander off by itself? It doesn't have legs. It shouldn't be capable of just vanishing into thin air. So I search high and low, in the fitness center, and I cannot find it ANYWHERE. Yeah I seriously think it just kinda ran away. Or the serial killer was actually just a kleptomaniac who wasn't trying to kill me at all, but just steal keycards to 201 for some unknown reason...whatevs.
So I go pick up my laundry, accepting the fact that for the second time in a week my keycard has decided to run away from me...I don't know what I did to offend it, but I truly am sorry. I run over to my building, hoping I had left the door to our apartment open, but no such luck. I am locked out. Fortunately, I had my toothbrush, toothpaste, carkeys, belt, and a whole laundry basket full of my clean clothes on hand. Yeah that was nice, because I decided to just run over to my sister's house to change and brush my teeth. I was planning on heading over there anyways, so we could all caravan to Brigham together to have Thanksgiving with her husband's family.
I leave the warmth of my building once again, and trudge through more ankle-numbing snow to my sister's beloved car, which I am borrowing (it's name is Wallace, just so you know who I'm talking to/about). I wander off to Wallace, and open the back door and drop my backpack and laundry in. Then I climb in the front seat and think about starting the car. Wait, it's cold here. There's frost on the windshield. Climb out of the car, with the little scrapey thing, and go at it. THERE'S FROST ON THE INSIDE OF THE WINDSHIELD. Yeah, that's not the worst of it. There's more frost inside than outside, and so, I still can't see when I climb back into my car, and I'm already foreign enough around snow, that I struggled just scraping the outside of the windshield. I'm at a loss as to what to do with the inside. I just sit there with the heater running, but it's not actually running, it's just blowing more frigid air onto my bare legs and wet ankles, and numb fingers...thanks a bunch Wallace. I love you too. I give up waiting, which I find out later from my brother-in-law, was not the best idea in the world.
Fortunately I make it to my sister's in one piece, and I am now okay. The day actually brightens from here on out. Thank goodness, because if that had been the whole day, I would not have been okay by tonight.
Unfortunately, the rest of the day, there's so much that went on, that I don't want to describe it all, but I'll do it in Thanksgiving fashion.
I'm thankful for my sister who lives here in town. Honestly with out her, I woulda been a sitting duck for that serial killer/klepto.
I'm thankful for a car, even if he is temperamental, Wallace is pretty awesome.
I'm thankful for how prepared I was to go without my key. The fact that something told me to grab keys, toothpaste, toothbrush, do my laundry, grab a laptop, my wallet, and everything else I REALLY needed today. I'm grateful that it happened that way.
I'm thankful for a place I had to go without my parents in town. my brother-in-law's family was wicked awesome today. I honestly enjoyed their company as much as the company I used to have when I lived back home.
I'm thankful for my nephews. Especially the baby. He actually laughed quite a bit for me, and I honestly appreciated it so much. Something about baby laughter always cheers you up.
I'm thankful for the delicious food that was there at Thanksgiving. It was so good.
I'm thankful for the chance I had to really see into my older brother's heart. I know he's been going through a tough time since he was released from his mission, but I just never really was accepting of the fact that he didn't know where to go. But he really opened up to me and my sister today, and I feel like we're all a little closer. There's hope for this family yet!
I'm thankful for today. It was an experience worth remembering.
Hope you all had some eventful Thanksgivings as well.
Okay, this morning was not great. I'll admit it right up front. This morning was actually one of the top five worst mornings...ever. I mean I woke up at eight, when my alarm went off. That was actually the brightest moment in the morning. And I hate waking up. I was planning on hopping right out of bed, eating a fantastic breakfast, and then heading over to the Lundstrom to get my laundry done. Well the plan faltered when I woke up from a dream where my roommate, Bryce, who had left last night, was murdered on his way home, and a serial killer stolen his room key. When I woke up, I KNEW that the serial killer was in my apartment with me, waiting to jump me the minute I got out of my bedroom. It took me an hour (no joke, I'm that paranoid) to finally convince myself to climb out of bed and take a shower. So after my shower, during which I couldn't help picturing some serial killer wandering around in my apartment, I throw on some gym shorts and the thinnest T-shirt I own so that while I'm doing my laundry I can go across the hall to workout in the fitness center. Yeah that was a bad idea, shoulda thought that through when it's 5 degrees outside, and there's snow everywhere.
Anyways on my way out of the apartment, I think to myself, "hey, you know what, I should just grab my toothbrush and toothpaste and brush my teeth in the Lundstrom, because I still haven't eaten breakfast...oh yeah and my belt so I can change there too..." I don't think I was fully coherent at this moment, because I dunno where the bathrooms are in the Lundstrom. And besides, I told you this already, but I am PARANOID. There's no way I could handle changing in a public bathroom when I still suspect there's some serial killer wandering around the SLC trying to kill me. Heck I hate public bathrooms when I'm not alone on campus with some deranged (and I guess I should mention, imaginary) psycho. They're just creepy. I can't help but picture myself being murdered in public bathrooms...especially the ones on campus. Call me crazy. I probably am a little bit. I'm still really glad that I wasn't coherent, because I swear that that was the first thing I was really grateful for this morning.
So I trudge across campus in my gym shorts, t-shirt, coat, and shoes. It's FREEZING. I don't think I've ever been that cold in my life. And I'm lugging this HUGE laundry basket, which is just awkwardly shaped, and I have my backpack with all the laundry soap weighing down my back...and I'm legitimately FREEZING. I know I said that, but seriously, it was COLD people. And I'm trudging through the snow, and it's up over my ankles, which means, snow in the shoes...not pleasant. It was just an uncomfortably cold experience.
Okay this narrative, it's long, I'm sorry. It was a long day. And if you don't care, just skip this post...seriously I just wanted to update, because my reader base...it's kind of expanded, and I don't want to let anyone down...although endlessly long posts might be a let down. I dunno. Sorry for the random tangent.
So I finally make my way to the Lundstrom and begin my laundry. It costs me $7 to do my laundry. $7! Yeah that's not cool. So I'm upset, because that's a lot of money for a poor college student. Plus I'm on campus, on Thanksgiving, and I'm the only living soul left in my building...not cool. So I load up the washers with all of my clothes and then go to check on the fitness room, but I hear the treadmill running, and I do not like working out with other people...it's just awkward. I don't even go in, I just go check my mailbox, and I'm REALLY creeped out, because the lights are ALL turned off...and yeah, there's a serial killer out there who wants to kill me. Not okay. So I check my mailbox, and there are letters for people who don't even live in our apartment...lame. I go back to my laundry, and fortunately had time to blog-stalk others while I waited for whoever was in the fitness center to leave.
I change out the laundry and then head over to the fitness center again. I can't hear anyone in there, so I pull out my keycard, and let myself in. I drop all of my pocket stuff over by the TV, turn on the TV and watch "Kung-Fu Panda," which just happened to be on TV. It was kind of relaxing, because I wasn't as panicked about the serial killer with background noise and an animated cartoon on TV, it's just harder to be paranoid, when the worst coming at you is a very unrealistic animated leopard who knows karate. Yeah you don't intimidate me, because I know you aren't real. So I finish up working out, go to pick up my stuff, and realize that my keycard is not with the rest of my stuff. Umm, here's where I'm confused. How does my keycard manage to wander off by itself? It doesn't have legs. It shouldn't be capable of just vanishing into thin air. So I search high and low, in the fitness center, and I cannot find it ANYWHERE. Yeah I seriously think it just kinda ran away. Or the serial killer was actually just a kleptomaniac who wasn't trying to kill me at all, but just steal keycards to 201 for some unknown reason...whatevs.
So I go pick up my laundry, accepting the fact that for the second time in a week my keycard has decided to run away from me...I don't know what I did to offend it, but I truly am sorry. I run over to my building, hoping I had left the door to our apartment open, but no such luck. I am locked out. Fortunately, I had my toothbrush, toothpaste, carkeys, belt, and a whole laundry basket full of my clean clothes on hand. Yeah that was nice, because I decided to just run over to my sister's house to change and brush my teeth. I was planning on heading over there anyways, so we could all caravan to Brigham together to have Thanksgiving with her husband's family.
I leave the warmth of my building once again, and trudge through more ankle-numbing snow to my sister's beloved car, which I am borrowing (it's name is Wallace, just so you know who I'm talking to/about). I wander off to Wallace, and open the back door and drop my backpack and laundry in. Then I climb in the front seat and think about starting the car. Wait, it's cold here. There's frost on the windshield. Climb out of the car, with the little scrapey thing, and go at it. THERE'S FROST ON THE INSIDE OF THE WINDSHIELD. Yeah, that's not the worst of it. There's more frost inside than outside, and so, I still can't see when I climb back into my car, and I'm already foreign enough around snow, that I struggled just scraping the outside of the windshield. I'm at a loss as to what to do with the inside. I just sit there with the heater running, but it's not actually running, it's just blowing more frigid air onto my bare legs and wet ankles, and numb fingers...thanks a bunch Wallace. I love you too. I give up waiting, which I find out later from my brother-in-law, was not the best idea in the world.
Fortunately I make it to my sister's in one piece, and I am now okay. The day actually brightens from here on out. Thank goodness, because if that had been the whole day, I would not have been okay by tonight.
Unfortunately, the rest of the day, there's so much that went on, that I don't want to describe it all, but I'll do it in Thanksgiving fashion.
I'm thankful for my sister who lives here in town. Honestly with out her, I woulda been a sitting duck for that serial killer/klepto.
I'm thankful for a car, even if he is temperamental, Wallace is pretty awesome.
I'm thankful for how prepared I was to go without my key. The fact that something told me to grab keys, toothpaste, toothbrush, do my laundry, grab a laptop, my wallet, and everything else I REALLY needed today. I'm grateful that it happened that way.
I'm thankful for a place I had to go without my parents in town. my brother-in-law's family was wicked awesome today. I honestly enjoyed their company as much as the company I used to have when I lived back home.
I'm thankful for my nephews. Especially the baby. He actually laughed quite a bit for me, and I honestly appreciated it so much. Something about baby laughter always cheers you up.
I'm thankful for the delicious food that was there at Thanksgiving. It was so good.
I'm thankful for the chance I had to really see into my older brother's heart. I know he's been going through a tough time since he was released from his mission, but I just never really was accepting of the fact that he didn't know where to go. But he really opened up to me and my sister today, and I feel like we're all a little closer. There's hope for this family yet!
I'm thankful for today. It was an experience worth remembering.
Hope you all had some eventful Thanksgivings as well.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Hey! Motivation! Where'd You Go?
Yeah, see there's a problem here. I don't have 50K words yet, and you kinda ran away. COME BACK!!!
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Feeling Like Someone is Stalking Me, and Writing Songs Based Off of My Romantic Life
That David Archuleta kid...yeah I feel like he really does follow my love life. Or else, maybe my love life follows his songs...I'm not sure. When I first heard him, it was the "Crush" song, and that was happening at the same time as when I had a serious crush on a girl in my seminary class, that I knew was never going away, and the lyrics pretty much described my feelings about her.
Then there's the whole "A Little Too Not Over You," yeah that was about the girl out here, during the whole crush time. I wasn't over her, but I wanted to be, and so I tried to move, on, but I just was not over her. Yeah it sucked, but there was that song, describing yet again the exact thing I was feeling.
Next, "Your Eyes Don't Lie" came into my life. Yeah I actually listened to this song with girl out here last summer, when I discovered that we both might just have mutual feelings for one another, and so this song, pretty much described my relationships yet again...it was kind of getting creepy at this point.
Then when we were separated again by most of a country I started listening to his song "To Be With You," and that one described my thoughts flawlessly, once more. And now it's his song "You Can." It's just kinda creepy how well this guy can write about my love life...but hey at least I can really relate to his music.
Then there's the whole "A Little Too Not Over You," yeah that was about the girl out here, during the whole crush time. I wasn't over her, but I wanted to be, and so I tried to move, on, but I just was not over her. Yeah it sucked, but there was that song, describing yet again the exact thing I was feeling.
Next, "Your Eyes Don't Lie" came into my life. Yeah I actually listened to this song with girl out here last summer, when I discovered that we both might just have mutual feelings for one another, and so this song, pretty much described my relationships yet again...it was kind of getting creepy at this point.
Then when we were separated again by most of a country I started listening to his song "To Be With You," and that one described my thoughts flawlessly, once more. And now it's his song "You Can." It's just kinda creepy how well this guy can write about my love life...but hey at least I can really relate to his music.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Story Update
Spoiler alert:
Zelos/Jessica: They fight, and I actually like it. I still am not sure about them anymore, but yeah just kidding. I still freaking love them...a lot. I'm just not sure I like this relationship as much as previous ones. It's slower, which is probably a good thing.
Zak: I feel like you are rash, and need to stop being so dumb...but maybe that's why I like you. You remind me of me...a lot. Honestly though, I finally am almost to the point where I can craft actual scenes with you as a member of the Order...I'm excited.
Iolana: I freaking love you, so much!!! You rock my socks, and I am like your dedicated groupie. No joke. Keep kicking butt and being awesome, because seriously, you are in my eyes, my most intriguing character.
New Characters: Rachel, Liz, and Jeffrey...where did you come from? Seriously, you are so much fun to work with, but I'm just shocked that you came out of nowhere, and so much of the story relies on you three. Thank you for coming into the story, because it needed you.
Akako: Congratulations, you get a bigger part, and you probably won't end up in prison. You might die though...so yeah it's kind of a mess for you still. Sorry, I feel bad about being such a jerk to you, but yeah, you're just one of those characters destined for misery.
Chrono: Still don't like you. You need more developing. Why are you such a jerk?
Lloyd: Holy cow, it's kind of weird creating you the way I am, when I know where you end up going...it's kind of a sad story writing your introduction in the way that I most like you, and knowing that by the end of this story (series I think, so not the end of this book), you'll be nothing like who I think you are. P.S. You and Rachel...I need to work with you so you don't end up the way I picture that happening.
Overall, this whole writing a whole ton of my book in a month, it's a nice feeling having this much done! I know that's not typically Nano Wrimo, but honestly I'm loving the progress I'm making!
Zelos/Jessica: They fight, and I actually like it. I still am not sure about them anymore, but yeah just kidding. I still freaking love them...a lot. I'm just not sure I like this relationship as much as previous ones. It's slower, which is probably a good thing.
Zak: I feel like you are rash, and need to stop being so dumb...but maybe that's why I like you. You remind me of me...a lot. Honestly though, I finally am almost to the point where I can craft actual scenes with you as a member of the Order...I'm excited.
Iolana: I freaking love you, so much!!! You rock my socks, and I am like your dedicated groupie. No joke. Keep kicking butt and being awesome, because seriously, you are in my eyes, my most intriguing character.
New Characters: Rachel, Liz, and Jeffrey...where did you come from? Seriously, you are so much fun to work with, but I'm just shocked that you came out of nowhere, and so much of the story relies on you three. Thank you for coming into the story, because it needed you.
Akako: Congratulations, you get a bigger part, and you probably won't end up in prison. You might die though...so yeah it's kind of a mess for you still. Sorry, I feel bad about being such a jerk to you, but yeah, you're just one of those characters destined for misery.
Chrono: Still don't like you. You need more developing. Why are you such a jerk?
Lloyd: Holy cow, it's kind of weird creating you the way I am, when I know where you end up going...it's kind of a sad story writing your introduction in the way that I most like you, and knowing that by the end of this story (series I think, so not the end of this book), you'll be nothing like who I think you are. P.S. You and Rachel...I need to work with you so you don't end up the way I picture that happening.
Overall, this whole writing a whole ton of my book in a month, it's a nice feeling having this much done! I know that's not typically Nano Wrimo, but honestly I'm loving the progress I'm making!
Dwarfs
Once upon someone asked me what I knew about dwarfs, and I was disappointed to realize that I did not know very much on this subject. So, like all good, curious writers, I decided to go research dwarfs and what I found was a strange mixture of surprising answers,and a load of new questions that I could not find the answers too.
Did you know that being a dwarf is now a very happy life? Only 1 in 7 dwarfs will admit to honestly being happy. It's kind of a sad statistic, but it's true. Ask any of the other six dwarfs in that set if they are happy. They will tell you that they are not, but that that one over there, the one with the cheesy smile always plastered on his face, he's actually happy.
Did you know that in dwarfish communities one dwarf takes one for the team and does all the sneezing for the entire community. Think about how nice that wold be, unless you are the dwarf who is the designated sneezer. How do they decide this, you might ask? It seems to be a random phenomenon, that occurs once a group of dwarfs have lived together for a week straight. Then randomly they all stop sneezing except for one. SO the question is, if you are a dwarf, would you rather live in a smaller community, where there's a greater chance of you becoming the sneezer, but where as the sneezer you won't get too many sneezes, or would you rather choose a large community, where there's a smaller chance of becoming the sneezer, but if you are, the sneezer, good luck accomplishing anything else in your life.
Really though, dwarfs are rather secretive, and therefore, I came up with many more questions than answers when studying them.
For example, are dwarfish parents psychic? How does a dwarf know what their baby will be like when they grow up? They're dead on 99.999999% of the time when naming their children. It seems like dwarfs have the ability to sense the one-dimensional character that their child will grow up to become, and name him accordingly. Seems pretty impressive to me, unless of course it's an inherited character that they receive, and then it's just lame.
Why has no one discovered a cure for those narcoleptic dwarfs? It's a tragic situation when a dwarf is a narcoleptic, and can do nothing with his life, but sleep the days away. You'd think that with a dwarf named Doc in the community, they might just be able to find some sort of cure for this terrible disease, but alas, they have not managed to succeed yet.
Why are dwarfs so cruel? They're obsessed with labels, and will do nothing but force the other dwarfs to live up to the label they have been tagged with. When a parent names their child Dopey, they are condemning that poor child to a life of ignorance. Not necessarily because there is anything wrong with the child (although that could actually be a possibility, now that I think about it, because let's face it, if your parents were to name you Dopey, their was probably something wrong with them, and so you might just have inherited that as well as your one-dimensional character), but it's the fact that somewhere along the line someone labeled another dwarf as being 'dopey,' and that label stuck, so no one ever bothered to try and help the poor dopey dwarf grow up and actually learn how to do anything.
This is just the surface layer of my studies, but I feel as though an entire new world of research has opened up to me as I study the lives of dwarfs. Wish me luck as I continue my research.
Did you know that being a dwarf is now a very happy life? Only 1 in 7 dwarfs will admit to honestly being happy. It's kind of a sad statistic, but it's true. Ask any of the other six dwarfs in that set if they are happy. They will tell you that they are not, but that that one over there, the one with the cheesy smile always plastered on his face, he's actually happy.
Did you know that in dwarfish communities one dwarf takes one for the team and does all the sneezing for the entire community. Think about how nice that wold be, unless you are the dwarf who is the designated sneezer. How do they decide this, you might ask? It seems to be a random phenomenon, that occurs once a group of dwarfs have lived together for a week straight. Then randomly they all stop sneezing except for one. SO the question is, if you are a dwarf, would you rather live in a smaller community, where there's a greater chance of you becoming the sneezer, but where as the sneezer you won't get too many sneezes, or would you rather choose a large community, where there's a smaller chance of becoming the sneezer, but if you are, the sneezer, good luck accomplishing anything else in your life.
Really though, dwarfs are rather secretive, and therefore, I came up with many more questions than answers when studying them.
For example, are dwarfish parents psychic? How does a dwarf know what their baby will be like when they grow up? They're dead on 99.999999% of the time when naming their children. It seems like dwarfs have the ability to sense the one-dimensional character that their child will grow up to become, and name him accordingly. Seems pretty impressive to me, unless of course it's an inherited character that they receive, and then it's just lame.
Why has no one discovered a cure for those narcoleptic dwarfs? It's a tragic situation when a dwarf is a narcoleptic, and can do nothing with his life, but sleep the days away. You'd think that with a dwarf named Doc in the community, they might just be able to find some sort of cure for this terrible disease, but alas, they have not managed to succeed yet.
Why are dwarfs so cruel? They're obsessed with labels, and will do nothing but force the other dwarfs to live up to the label they have been tagged with. When a parent names their child Dopey, they are condemning that poor child to a life of ignorance. Not necessarily because there is anything wrong with the child (although that could actually be a possibility, now that I think about it, because let's face it, if your parents were to name you Dopey, their was probably something wrong with them, and so you might just have inherited that as well as your one-dimensional character), but it's the fact that somewhere along the line someone labeled another dwarf as being 'dopey,' and that label stuck, so no one ever bothered to try and help the poor dopey dwarf grow up and actually learn how to do anything.
This is just the surface layer of my studies, but I feel as though an entire new world of research has opened up to me as I study the lives of dwarfs. Wish me luck as I continue my research.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Mind Blown
Okay so I copied this from my friend Rachel who got it somewhere else, but it blew my mind.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Anticipation
Phantom of the opera starts in just over an hour! I'm so stinking excited to go watch it live for the first time ever. Even though it's a high school production, it's gonna be so freaking good. you honestly have no idea how excited I am! This is gonna be such a great show!!! I guess I better start heading out soon, since it's at least 1/2 an hour away, and I don't want to miss a second!!
Monday, November 8, 2010
Watch It. Love It As Much As I Do
Yeah kinda been failing on the writing front the last couple of days, but this should make you happy, and so should the news that I begin writing immediately after this post.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAUMU3QQE6w
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAUMU3QQE6w
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Oh Heck. It's Late
It's almost 3 in the morning...true it's Friday, but that's still way late for me to be up...but I finally am at the part in my story where things start developing between Jessica and Zelos. I love Jessica and Zelos. We'll see if I ever actually get to bed tonight.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Going Forward with the Novel
Yesterday was some of the best work I got done ever on my novel. It doesn't read really well yet, but I got a lot of progress in it, and Introduced my most important characters better than I have yet, but I kinda hit a brick wall today. It's only the second day. Not a good sign. I need to write 2000 words in 6 1/2 hours today still. Let's see how today goes.
I Hope
I really hope that that last post did not come off conceited. Most of it was sarcasm. Sorry if that sounded bad. I just am kind of annoyed with that guy right now, because I went out on a limb guessing that it was Christ symbolism and I got a nice big smirk from him...not cool Mr. your retarded. Not cool.
Really? (my whiney posts will from now on be entitled this)
Okay, so today in my Lit Analysis class we were discussing The Great Gatsby. I hated the book in high school, but really am liking it this time. Well apparently I'm the only one...but hey that's cool, I like being kinda unique in book choices. I mean yeah I'm on the Harry Potter bandwagon, but I read other books, books that most people don't, or haven't even heard of. I'm cool with that. Although I like being able to discuss some, so if you've read Gregor the Overlander, The Awakening, The Importance of Being Earnest (kay that's kind of a common one), or A Ring of Endless Light FOR FUN, come talk to me, because not a lot of people talk to me about those, and I love them.
Anyways that's not what I'm complaining about here. Our professor decides to point out three words and ask us what comes to mind. The words: 'wafer,' 'garden,' 'host,'... I mean yeah maybe I was stretching on this one, but honestly Christ symbolism came to mind. Call me crazy, for not thinking 'oh that sounds like a tea party,' but seriously Catholic Communion=wafers, Garden of Gethsemane=garden, and Lord of hosts=Host...Christ, right? Right. That's exactly what my professor was trying to get us to say, but the minute I said it, I could tell everyone in the class was thinking 'oh yeah, right because Gatsby can have Christ symbolism.' Most literature has Christ symbolism, it's easy for people to understand and relate to...
My favorite was one of the three of us guys in the class. He's the 'your retarded' guy if you remember that. Anyways he's pretty anti-religion, and he just smirked when I said that I thought it was Christ symbolism. 'All you Utah Mormons trying to bring Christ into everything.' No. I don't think Gatsby is at all like my Savior. I just recognize that, because I've been taught how to notice it. It's there. Besides if you have a problem with Utah Mormons, why the heck would you choose to come to a school in Utah? Seems like a bad idea, but hey that's just my opinion.
Now for the random rant about this kid. Honestly, he's a good writer, but he's kind of a fail when it comes to analysis, but he has the ability to make you feel like your the dumb one. It's kind of annoying. He had a cow when we read two stories about the men being the bad guys in them, and the women being suppressed. 'How come we always have to read about the big bad man?' Because honestly for pretty much ever we the men have been an oppressive gender who wouldn't allow women to actually be who they wanted to be. So honestly I don't blame women for writing about that when they finally had the ability to break free and be published. Besides with as many lit pieces out there on that topic as there are, signing up for a class called "Literary Analysis," wouldn't you assume that you would be studying about that theme? Maybe it just seems like common sense to me.
Anyways that was my rant for today. I'm sorry that I actually can sort of analyze some books...
Anyways that's not what I'm complaining about here. Our professor decides to point out three words and ask us what comes to mind. The words: 'wafer,' 'garden,' 'host,'... I mean yeah maybe I was stretching on this one, but honestly Christ symbolism came to mind. Call me crazy, for not thinking 'oh that sounds like a tea party,' but seriously Catholic Communion=wafers, Garden of Gethsemane=garden, and Lord of hosts=Host...Christ, right? Right. That's exactly what my professor was trying to get us to say, but the minute I said it, I could tell everyone in the class was thinking 'oh yeah, right because Gatsby can have Christ symbolism.' Most literature has Christ symbolism, it's easy for people to understand and relate to...
My favorite was one of the three of us guys in the class. He's the 'your retarded' guy if you remember that. Anyways he's pretty anti-religion, and he just smirked when I said that I thought it was Christ symbolism. 'All you Utah Mormons trying to bring Christ into everything.' No. I don't think Gatsby is at all like my Savior. I just recognize that, because I've been taught how to notice it. It's there. Besides if you have a problem with Utah Mormons, why the heck would you choose to come to a school in Utah? Seems like a bad idea, but hey that's just my opinion.
Now for the random rant about this kid. Honestly, he's a good writer, but he's kind of a fail when it comes to analysis, but he has the ability to make you feel like your the dumb one. It's kind of annoying. He had a cow when we read two stories about the men being the bad guys in them, and the women being suppressed. 'How come we always have to read about the big bad man?' Because honestly for pretty much ever we the men have been an oppressive gender who wouldn't allow women to actually be who they wanted to be. So honestly I don't blame women for writing about that when they finally had the ability to break free and be published. Besides with as many lit pieces out there on that topic as there are, signing up for a class called "Literary Analysis," wouldn't you assume that you would be studying about that theme? Maybe it just seems like common sense to me.
Anyways that was my rant for today. I'm sorry that I actually can sort of analyze some books...
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Looking Back
I can't honestly believe what all was going on in my head at the beginning of the semester. It was such a dark place, that I didn't feel like I could let anyone know about...I wish I trusted more, because I think I could've recovered more quickly if I had trusted someone enough to actually talk to them.
I'm actually happy now. It's nice. I have some amazing friends at school with me now, and even though I'm not who I really want to be yet, I'm progressing, and I think that's what matters.
I honestly wish that no one else would ever have to go through what I did that month, because it was terrible. And when I stop and think, I realize that people have gone through worse, and ended up taking their own lives. That's a scary thought. I dunno why this hit me all of a sudden, but I just want everyone to know that no matter how low your lows are, there is a way to turn around and find happiness again.
The way is love. Love those around you more than you love yourself. Even if you think you hate yourself, the fact that you think more about how much you hate about yourself more than you think about others is a sign of selfishness. Get out of that rut and go out and serve. Let God into your life. Just pray to Him. He wants to be a part of your life, especially at times like that in your life. Let Him, because He can change your perspective. That's a wonderful feeling!
Never give up on happiness.
I'm actually happy now. It's nice. I have some amazing friends at school with me now, and even though I'm not who I really want to be yet, I'm progressing, and I think that's what matters.
I honestly wish that no one else would ever have to go through what I did that month, because it was terrible. And when I stop and think, I realize that people have gone through worse, and ended up taking their own lives. That's a scary thought. I dunno why this hit me all of a sudden, but I just want everyone to know that no matter how low your lows are, there is a way to turn around and find happiness again.
The way is love. Love those around you more than you love yourself. Even if you think you hate yourself, the fact that you think more about how much you hate about yourself more than you think about others is a sign of selfishness. Get out of that rut and go out and serve. Let God into your life. Just pray to Him. He wants to be a part of your life, especially at times like that in your life. Let Him, because He can change your perspective. That's a wonderful feeling!
Never give up on happiness.
Ain't Seen Nothing Yet
So remember way back last month when I was complaining about the cold...it's WAAAAY colder here now...like there's been snow...although so far not much is sticking at all, except maybe in the shade, but even then...not so much.
So I guess the fact is that I am just way too used to the south and the 'winters' they have there. I'm freezing now!!! And it's only October. I LOVE it here, but I am going to die come December. Good thing I have about a month back in the South before returning so that I can have some semi-warm winter weather. That'll be nice!
On the bright side I can now drink loads of hot chocolate, without feeling too bad about saving it until it's cold. I have lots, and it's gonna be cold. I'm slightly excited for the snow though!!! Even though the winds here are AWFUL!!
So I guess the fact is that I am just way too used to the south and the 'winters' they have there. I'm freezing now!!! And it's only October. I LOVE it here, but I am going to die come December. Good thing I have about a month back in the South before returning so that I can have some semi-warm winter weather. That'll be nice!
On the bright side I can now drink loads of hot chocolate, without feeling too bad about saving it until it's cold. I have lots, and it's gonna be cold. I'm slightly excited for the snow though!!! Even though the winds here are AWFUL!!
Disappointment Continued
So I thought of a couple other things that aren't so bad. I love Quinn this season. She was good last season, but she's gotten even better this season, and I honestly think she's the most believable character (and possibly actor) in the show. I'm glad that you haven't ruined her character, I love her character. Also Brittany, I still love her. She also seems to have continued right from where Season one ended, and I like that. I'm glad she's getting opportunities to shine as well. She kind of deserves them, since she's your strongest dancer and not too shabby of a singer either. Mike Chang's development is pretty cool too, although having it come at the cost of Artie and Tina...not sure if I'm okay with that. Also the fact that he can't sing...why was he singing or acting like he was singing all season one, and yet we never knew that he can't? Seems like an important character trait to learn early on in a glee club...just sayin.
Episode choices...I dislike them. Britney Spears...it was a fun episode only in the context of watching "Baby One More Time," only because it was the 90s music video redone with Lea Michelle. That was fun. Other than that...kind of lame, sorry. Then the religious episode. It was pretty offensive. I know that at the end you tried to make it not very offensive, but some jokes are just done in poor taste, and that whole episode was filled with them. First episode was good, and Duets wasn't so bad, although these episodes still are not linked by a common plot. Where are we going this season?? I really want to know.
I will accept your song choices for the first episode, and surprisingly, they didn't all seem to be linked. How strange. Episode two had a few good songs, but after a while I just got tired of Britney, and if you really wanted to do Britney songs, you could have done what you did with Queen season one. Every once in a while they did a new Queen song, and it was fun anticipating when another one would come. Now you just hand us an artist all at once. Lame.
Episode choices...I dislike them. Britney Spears...it was a fun episode only in the context of watching "Baby One More Time," only because it was the 90s music video redone with Lea Michelle. That was fun. Other than that...kind of lame, sorry. Then the religious episode. It was pretty offensive. I know that at the end you tried to make it not very offensive, but some jokes are just done in poor taste, and that whole episode was filled with them. First episode was good, and Duets wasn't so bad, although these episodes still are not linked by a common plot. Where are we going this season?? I really want to know.
I will accept your song choices for the first episode, and surprisingly, they didn't all seem to be linked. How strange. Episode two had a few good songs, but after a while I just got tired of Britney, and if you really wanted to do Britney songs, you could have done what you did with Queen season one. Every once in a while they did a new Queen song, and it was fun anticipating when another one would come. Now you just hand us an artist all at once. Lame.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Disappointment
So this season of Glee...it just bothers me. I still haven't seen the Rocky Horror episode yet, and I'm not really working up the want to go watch it...
Where did the plot go? Seriously that combined with the music was the whole reason I watched the first season. Now it seems like all the writers are after is the spectacle of the thing. I don't care if there's a theme linking the songs, your best episodes were before you tried to link all of the songs. Instead just find songs that fit with the plot instead of a plot that follows a certain singer or word to a song...that's so lame.
Character wise...this season also sort of fails. What happened to Will and Emma? I know you want it to take a while for them to get together, but seriously, why can't they just be together, they aren't Jim and Pam from The Office, they don't need time to get together. They've had time, just stick them together already! Also Tina...I don't really like you anymore. You're kind of a jerk, and I used to really love you...lame. Can't complain about Mercedes, I was never fond of her...sorry Mercedes fans. KURT...you weren't even planning on having Kurt in the first season, why is this show all of a sudden the Kurt Hummel show? I just do not get it. Rachel and Finn may be slightly obnoxious, but that's the type of people you meet in choir, and so I really like the focus on them. I get that you want to focus on everyone else in the club this season, but I miss Rachel and Finn.
End of show numbers...I love Lea Michelle, honestly I think she's wonderful, but stop giving her every single end of episode song! I like the major choir numbers, and you kinda stopped those. True her songs have been some of my favorites, but I just am not to fond of the fact that you think they make wonderful episode endings...
New characters: They're fantastic, give whatever the new girl's name is a chance to really shine! BRING HER BACK!!!! Also Bieste, I think she's phenomenal. I almost like her more than Sue. There's more character to her than there was to Sue within the first few episodes she's been in. Sam, I know that you guys are probably going to make him Kurt's guy...but that really annoys me. Quinn is my FAVORITE character, and she's already had enough crap going on in her life. Don't top that off with her next boyfriend going gay. Not okay. If he stays with Quinn he's okay, if not, I hate him. Just saying.
What is the plot of this season? I still don't even know...at least we had some directions in first season, now it seriously seems like they should be called no directions...and that's sad.
It's not all terrible, it's just such a let down from season one that I really am questioning if it's worth watching anymore...
Where did the plot go? Seriously that combined with the music was the whole reason I watched the first season. Now it seems like all the writers are after is the spectacle of the thing. I don't care if there's a theme linking the songs, your best episodes were before you tried to link all of the songs. Instead just find songs that fit with the plot instead of a plot that follows a certain singer or word to a song...that's so lame.
Character wise...this season also sort of fails. What happened to Will and Emma? I know you want it to take a while for them to get together, but seriously, why can't they just be together, they aren't Jim and Pam from The Office, they don't need time to get together. They've had time, just stick them together already! Also Tina...I don't really like you anymore. You're kind of a jerk, and I used to really love you...lame. Can't complain about Mercedes, I was never fond of her...sorry Mercedes fans. KURT...you weren't even planning on having Kurt in the first season, why is this show all of a sudden the Kurt Hummel show? I just do not get it. Rachel and Finn may be slightly obnoxious, but that's the type of people you meet in choir, and so I really like the focus on them. I get that you want to focus on everyone else in the club this season, but I miss Rachel and Finn.
End of show numbers...I love Lea Michelle, honestly I think she's wonderful, but stop giving her every single end of episode song! I like the major choir numbers, and you kinda stopped those. True her songs have been some of my favorites, but I just am not to fond of the fact that you think they make wonderful episode endings...
New characters: They're fantastic, give whatever the new girl's name is a chance to really shine! BRING HER BACK!!!! Also Bieste, I think she's phenomenal. I almost like her more than Sue. There's more character to her than there was to Sue within the first few episodes she's been in. Sam, I know that you guys are probably going to make him Kurt's guy...but that really annoys me. Quinn is my FAVORITE character, and she's already had enough crap going on in her life. Don't top that off with her next boyfriend going gay. Not okay. If he stays with Quinn he's okay, if not, I hate him. Just saying.
What is the plot of this season? I still don't even know...at least we had some directions in first season, now it seriously seems like they should be called no directions...and that's sad.
It's not all terrible, it's just such a let down from season one that I really am questioning if it's worth watching anymore...
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Because my mommy said so (well FHE mommy anyways)
I thought that you might enjoy things on my board of inspiration. This is how I keep myself working some days, generally these are things I've found on facebook and seen as worthy quotes to keep me inspired:
*"Do you even care that those around you could go to Hell tomorrow?"
*"What about tonight? I hear the steaks are to die for there."
*"A Writer writes"
*"Replace fear of the unknown with curiosity"
*"Do your homework - Future self"
*"Shaun, we went out for a bit. I don't know if we'll be back for shopping in time :( call Tisha though and see if we still can :) Thanks! You're great :) - 203 :) P.S. Hi Tyrell and L.A. and Ricky and Mitch and Bryce."
*If you can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl, you are not giving the kiss the attention it deserves." Albert Einstein
*"You become what you want to be by consistently being what you want to become." - Richard G. Scott
*"Don't Forget to smile"
*Defilippis Equation of Awesomeness: A=(b+f)S/a - I don't get it.
*"Do you even care that those around you could go to Hell tomorrow?"
*"What about tonight? I hear the steaks are to die for there."
*"A Writer writes"
*"Replace fear of the unknown with curiosity"
*"Do your homework - Future self"
*"Shaun, we went out for a bit. I don't know if we'll be back for shopping in time :( call Tisha though and see if we still can :) Thanks! You're great :) - 203 :) P.S. Hi Tyrell and L.A. and Ricky and Mitch and Bryce."
*If you can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl, you are not giving the kiss the attention it deserves." Albert Einstein
*"You become what you want to be by consistently being what you want to become." - Richard G. Scott
*"Don't Forget to smile"
*Defilippis Equation of Awesomeness: A=(b+f)S/a - I don't get it.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
I Should Be...
Studying. My room is clean, I've seen about everything that's gone on on facebook in the past hour, and I've been talking to Tyrell. I have yet to sit down and read any of my text book. Midterms are tomorrow and yet here I am not studying. This is getting out of hand. I need to stop and study, and yet I really don't want to. Okay, I"m logging of the computer and studying...soon.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
The End
Day 30- Who are you?
I'm a child of God. I'm a writer. I'm a future missionary. I love music. I love learning about other people. Sometimes I'm a fail. I'm an uncle, a brother, a son, a nephew, a grandson. I'm an Aggie. I try and be a good friend. I'm becoming a little bit of a dancer. I'm an out of practice pianist. I'm a Priesthood holder. I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I'm a How to Train Your Dragon addict. I'm a choir kid. I'm an over-rated, under-talented actor. I'm a masseuse. I'm an English major. I'm a high school graduate turned college student.
I'm a child of God. I'm a writer. I'm a future missionary. I love music. I love learning about other people. Sometimes I'm a fail. I'm an uncle, a brother, a son, a nephew, a grandson. I'm an Aggie. I try and be a good friend. I'm becoming a little bit of a dancer. I'm an out of practice pianist. I'm a Priesthood holder. I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I'm a How to Train Your Dragon addict. I'm a choir kid. I'm an over-rated, under-talented actor. I'm a masseuse. I'm an English major. I'm a high school graduate turned college student.
Really?
Okay, seriously I'm kinda angry right now. Homeciomng is next week, and I've been keeping my eyes open for any sign of where to get tickets...nothing. So finally today I find out that we have a ticket office in the TSC. Okay that's cool, that's probably where I go to get my tickets... Nope! Just wishful thinking I guess, because when I get there, there's a sign that says that the Ticket Office is undergoing changes and then it tells you where to get Arts tickets and Athletics tickets. Great, don't need those. So I go in to ask where I can get the tickets. This is a big deal, because I HATE talking to strangers, and I especially HATE asking questions to strangers. But I did it, I went in and asked the lady there if she knew where to get Homecoming tickets. She looked up and glared at me. Oh I'm sorry that I'm asking you a question, when it's your job to sell tickets. Excuse me for actually trying to bring you business. Anyways she tells me (in a VERY condescending voice) that they don't sell them there, and they haven't gotten any information on Homecoming yet. Okay, so I'm really confused here, how do you not have information on Homecoming yet? It's a week away! Seriously there's no way that they aren't selling tickets somewhere, and you're the stinking ticket office! You should really know where they're selling tickets for Homecoming! I'm still fuming about the lady, though. She is the reason I don't talk to strangers, because most the time I end up dealing with jerks who treat you like crap, because, heaven forbid, I'm actually making them do what they're paid for.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Day Twenty-Nine
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned?
I've learned a lot this past month, it's been an interesting month. First I learned that I need to have more trust in God. I hit the lowest point in my life this month, and it took me a couple of weeks to honestly step back and realize that God's promises were applicable to me, as long as I was able to trust and love him. In this I learned that I have a hard time letting anyone get to know the deepest levels of myself. I couldn't even get myself to trust God with my inner-self, even though I knew that He knows me I still could not bring myself to open up that much to him. I'm working on it though, and I already feel so much better than I did in my lows.
I also learned that I entirely agree with the church's stance on the family. I had always been complacent about it, believing that really as long as it wasn't me there was truly nothing wrong, but there is. I once heard that sin is defined as anything that hurts others, and even though it doesn't seem like that's hurting anyone but the people involved, truly it is. If the only path to gain Eternal Life is through eternal marriage, then choosing an alternative to that, it's taking that happiness (at least in this life, I don't really know a lot about the next life, except that God will take care of everything) from another child of God and that's not okay. Honestly all of this antagonism towards Boyd K. Packer this past week has led me to finally choose a stance and stick to it, and I feel better about life now that I have chosen a stance.
I learned I am not an actor. I hate my acting class with a passion. It sucks. I loved theatre so much in high school, but now it's just awful. I love seeing stage productions, but I now no longer have any desire to be in a stage production, ever again. I'm not a great actor, and I don't want audiences to pay to come watch, me be mediocre on stage. It's just not something I feel right in doing. Maybe it'll get better and I'll find my love that I've lost for acting, but if I don't, I'm not too disappointed, because honestly I'm happier writing, and having people appreciate what I write.
I love college, generally. Some of the classes really aren't that great, but then you come home to your apartment and it's your own, and you're living with all sorts of friends, and life is great. Then Lit. Analysis, I'm always happy in that class, just knowing that I'm there with all sorts of other people who are excited to study this great language and the great writers. I also love Friday nights more than another night...ever. So what if I don't get much sleep, adventures are way more fun.
Also, Ramen needs water when you put it in the microwave. Cleaning checks stink majorly. Dishes, yeah not very many people like to do them...at all. I'm paranoid (I woke up alone in my apartment and was seriously freaked out that the guy from When a Stranger Calls would be in my apartment. It was in fact terrifying). I have the coolest mom in the world.
I've learned a lot this past month, it's been an interesting month. First I learned that I need to have more trust in God. I hit the lowest point in my life this month, and it took me a couple of weeks to honestly step back and realize that God's promises were applicable to me, as long as I was able to trust and love him. In this I learned that I have a hard time letting anyone get to know the deepest levels of myself. I couldn't even get myself to trust God with my inner-self, even though I knew that He knows me I still could not bring myself to open up that much to him. I'm working on it though, and I already feel so much better than I did in my lows.
I also learned that I entirely agree with the church's stance on the family. I had always been complacent about it, believing that really as long as it wasn't me there was truly nothing wrong, but there is. I once heard that sin is defined as anything that hurts others, and even though it doesn't seem like that's hurting anyone but the people involved, truly it is. If the only path to gain Eternal Life is through eternal marriage, then choosing an alternative to that, it's taking that happiness (at least in this life, I don't really know a lot about the next life, except that God will take care of everything) from another child of God and that's not okay. Honestly all of this antagonism towards Boyd K. Packer this past week has led me to finally choose a stance and stick to it, and I feel better about life now that I have chosen a stance.
I learned I am not an actor. I hate my acting class with a passion. It sucks. I loved theatre so much in high school, but now it's just awful. I love seeing stage productions, but I now no longer have any desire to be in a stage production, ever again. I'm not a great actor, and I don't want audiences to pay to come watch, me be mediocre on stage. It's just not something I feel right in doing. Maybe it'll get better and I'll find my love that I've lost for acting, but if I don't, I'm not too disappointed, because honestly I'm happier writing, and having people appreciate what I write.
I love college, generally. Some of the classes really aren't that great, but then you come home to your apartment and it's your own, and you're living with all sorts of friends, and life is great. Then Lit. Analysis, I'm always happy in that class, just knowing that I'm there with all sorts of other people who are excited to study this great language and the great writers. I also love Friday nights more than another night...ever. So what if I don't get much sleep, adventures are way more fun.
Also, Ramen needs water when you put it in the microwave. Cleaning checks stink majorly. Dishes, yeah not very many people like to do them...at all. I'm paranoid (I woke up alone in my apartment and was seriously freaked out that the guy from When a Stranger Calls would be in my apartment. It was in fact terrifying). I have the coolest mom in the world.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Cloud 9? Yeah I'm There
I am blissfully happy right now!!! I don't know what I ever did to deserve this kind of happiness, but here I am completely and utterly happy, even though I still have a paper to write by tomorrow morning. That doesn't even seem to matter right now.
Day Twenty-Eight
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
No pictures this time, just some basic thoughts. First off I own a new CTR ring. I lost my old one in the Tennessee River, and so I bought a new one. Sure I miss the old spinny one, but this new one is pretty darn amazing. My hair is different...I don't know if it's longer or shorter, but it's different somehow, so that's cool. I might be in better shape. I definitely get out of the house more because I walk to and from and all around campus...which could have added some color, I dunno. I'm more comfortable about my feet. I used to hate them, but now I don't mind them so much. I don't show them off or anything, but I've accepted them, so they look better to me...okay that was weird. My glasses are really badly messed up so I'll be getting some new ones soon, and then hopefully contacts for Christmas. I think I've gotten skinnier...I didn't used to think it was possible, but I seriously think I've lost weight. New bracelet...yeah it's definitely something that looks different. I smell different (it's amazing what going into a store with a girl can do). I also now own a polo...never thought that would happen. And I own an Aeropostal (I still can't spell it) shirt...so yeah (also same girl's fault). My posture may or may not have changed...I think it's gotten slightly better, but probably not, just wishful thinking. I try to smile more now, after battling some serious lows I've decided to just try and smile more, because it honestly does help. Yeah I think those are some major changes, or minor changes. Just some changes.
No pictures this time, just some basic thoughts. First off I own a new CTR ring. I lost my old one in the Tennessee River, and so I bought a new one. Sure I miss the old spinny one, but this new one is pretty darn amazing. My hair is different...I don't know if it's longer or shorter, but it's different somehow, so that's cool. I might be in better shape. I definitely get out of the house more because I walk to and from and all around campus...which could have added some color, I dunno. I'm more comfortable about my feet. I used to hate them, but now I don't mind them so much. I don't show them off or anything, but I've accepted them, so they look better to me...okay that was weird. My glasses are really badly messed up so I'll be getting some new ones soon, and then hopefully contacts for Christmas. I think I've gotten skinnier...I didn't used to think it was possible, but I seriously think I've lost weight. New bracelet...yeah it's definitely something that looks different. I smell different (it's amazing what going into a store with a girl can do). I also now own a polo...never thought that would happen. And I own an Aeropostal (I still can't spell it) shirt...so yeah (also same girl's fault). My posture may or may not have changed...I think it's gotten slightly better, but probably not, just wishful thinking. I try to smile more now, after battling some serious lows I've decided to just try and smile more, because it honestly does help. Yeah I think those are some major changes, or minor changes. Just some changes.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Day Twenty-Seven
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
I'm a writer. I want to do whatever I can to exercise this talent, and this seemed like a fun writing exercise. It's been really interesting realizing everything I write, because so much about me has changed back and forth in this past month. I'm stabilizing now, I think. Honestly though, I could not have chosen a more intriguing month in my life to do this thirty day challenge, because it was just a month in my life where things weren't stable and nothing was set in stone. I don't know if anything is set in stone yet, but hey It's been an adventure getting here, and that was fun to write about. Even if you readers only got slight glances on what was going on.
I'm a writer. I want to do whatever I can to exercise this talent, and this seemed like a fun writing exercise. It's been really interesting realizing everything I write, because so much about me has changed back and forth in this past month. I'm stabilizing now, I think. Honestly though, I could not have chosen a more intriguing month in my life to do this thirty day challenge, because it was just a month in my life where things weren't stable and nothing was set in stone. I don't know if anything is set in stone yet, but hey It's been an adventure getting here, and that was fun to write about. Even if you readers only got slight glances on what was going on.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Day Twenty-Six
Day 26- What do you think about your friends?
They ain't too bad honestly. I mean I have some pretty awesome friends who stick around me even when they get to know me. Heck most of them keep telling me they miss me, which honestly is pretty flipping sweet, since they've known me for five years, and they still miss hanging out with me.
My new friends here are equally sweet. It's harder being who I want to be around them, because I don't want them to get the wrong impression of me, but even so, I like them. I'm doing better at opening up I think, and really I enjoy hanging out with them a lot. Rooms 302 and 203 though, seriously they're a blast to hang out with. Plus my roommates are awesome. Yeah honestly there are a lot of people here who I consider my friends and who are completely awesome. I just have some pretty amazing people in my life.
They ain't too bad honestly. I mean I have some pretty awesome friends who stick around me even when they get to know me. Heck most of them keep telling me they miss me, which honestly is pretty flipping sweet, since they've known me for five years, and they still miss hanging out with me.
My new friends here are equally sweet. It's harder being who I want to be around them, because I don't want them to get the wrong impression of me, but even so, I like them. I'm doing better at opening up I think, and really I enjoy hanging out with them a lot. Rooms 302 and 203 though, seriously they're a blast to hang out with. Plus my roommates are awesome. Yeah honestly there are a lot of people here who I consider my friends and who are completely awesome. I just have some pretty amazing people in my life.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Day Twenty-Five
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
There are quite a few things I would like to point out here. First off I don't know who the 'I' in the above statement is, but I don't know if i feel comfortable with whoever you are snooping around in my 'bag.' Second off, I'm a guy, I don't have a said 'bag' unless it's my backpack or a grocery bag. If you're snooping around in my backpack you'll find highlighters, several textbooks, several notebooks, and one to two other random books I'm currently reading. If you're going through my groceries you'll find stuff like Mac&Cheese, Tortilla chips, Alfredo sauce packets, milk, eggs, assorted cleaning chemicals (depending on whether we're going through cleaning checks), and all sorts of other random stuff I need.
Really though, I'm not okay with you going through my stuff. Please don't do that.
There are quite a few things I would like to point out here. First off I don't know who the 'I' in the above statement is, but I don't know if i feel comfortable with whoever you are snooping around in my 'bag.' Second off, I'm a guy, I don't have a said 'bag' unless it's my backpack or a grocery bag. If you're snooping around in my backpack you'll find highlighters, several textbooks, several notebooks, and one to two other random books I'm currently reading. If you're going through my groceries you'll find stuff like Mac&Cheese, Tortilla chips, Alfredo sauce packets, milk, eggs, assorted cleaning chemicals (depending on whether we're going through cleaning checks), and all sorts of other random stuff I need.
Really though, I'm not okay with you going through my stuff. Please don't do that.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Day Twenty-Four
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Dear Mom and Dad,
College is going great! I really am enjoying it here, and I'm so thankful that you were willing to let me move across the country to come here, because I'm seriously and honestly happier here than I would have been back home. Also thank you so much for supporting me when I'm making choices that are driven more by passion than by money. I know you want me to be successful, but you guys have allowed me to define success for myself, and that means a lot to me.
This summer sucked. I'm still slightly bitter. I'm getting better, but I'm still confused why all of a sudden my existence stopped mattering. I don't blame you guys entirely for the whole suckiness of the summer, but it would have been really nice to know that you guys actually did care. It was partially my fault too though, I expected a lot more than I should have from this summer. Wishful thinking, it's going to be the death of me.
I'm not sure how this Christmas will be. I hope I'll have worked through all of this crap by the time Christmas rolls around, but I make no guarantees. I'm sorry that I don't generally forgive and forget easily. I've been trying, but my mind doesn't generally forget a lot of things I wish it would. That stuff just eats away at me, and I won't let it go. Sorry.
Love you, but still struggling,
Zelos
Dear Mom and Dad,
College is going great! I really am enjoying it here, and I'm so thankful that you were willing to let me move across the country to come here, because I'm seriously and honestly happier here than I would have been back home. Also thank you so much for supporting me when I'm making choices that are driven more by passion than by money. I know you want me to be successful, but you guys have allowed me to define success for myself, and that means a lot to me.
This summer sucked. I'm still slightly bitter. I'm getting better, but I'm still confused why all of a sudden my existence stopped mattering. I don't blame you guys entirely for the whole suckiness of the summer, but it would have been really nice to know that you guys actually did care. It was partially my fault too though, I expected a lot more than I should have from this summer. Wishful thinking, it's going to be the death of me.
I'm not sure how this Christmas will be. I hope I'll have worked through all of this crap by the time Christmas rolls around, but I make no guarantees. I'm sorry that I don't generally forgive and forget easily. I've been trying, but my mind doesn't generally forget a lot of things I wish it would. That stuff just eats away at me, and I won't let it go. Sorry.
Love you, but still struggling,
Zelos
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Day Twenty Three
Day 23- Something you are craving
I pretty much always crave A&W rootbeer floats now that there's an A&W like five minutes away. Also, Jamba Juice, and time with my best friend. Yeah that was kind of a lame one today.
Day 23 - my style: List of things to accomplish in the next 24 hours:
-Sleep
-Laundry
-Cleaning check stuff
-Buy tickets to go see Cripple of Inishmaan
-Think of something to do in theatre tomorrow
-Homework...a lot of homework
-Go to choir practice tonight
-Watch Glee
-Talk to Tiffani
-Eat one or two meals in there...most likely just one, but we'll see :)
Yeah that's about it.
I pretty much always crave A&W rootbeer floats now that there's an A&W like five minutes away. Also, Jamba Juice, and time with my best friend. Yeah that was kind of a lame one today.
Day 23 - my style: List of things to accomplish in the next 24 hours:
-Sleep
-Laundry
-Cleaning check stuff
-Buy tickets to go see Cripple of Inishmaan
-Think of something to do in theatre tomorrow
-Homework...a lot of homework
-Go to choir practice tonight
-Watch Glee
-Talk to Tiffani
-Eat one or two meals in there...most likely just one, but we'll see :)
Yeah that's about it.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Bite the Bullet
Our kitchen is a mess...the most disgusting mess I think I've seen in a LONG time. I can't stand it any longer, and even when I'm not looking at it I can't help but think about all the work it is going to take to clean it. I honestly do not have the ability to focus on anything but how much work it is going to take to clean it...and I'm pretty sure it'll be me cleaning it. Hmm...I'm thinking it's time to go clean again, but I really don't want to. On the bright side, my room is actually really clean today, so that's not gonna be too bad, just gotta stress over the kitchen and the cleaning checks, and then KEEP THINGS CLEAN...I dunno if we'll be able to do it, but my OCDness is going to drive me crazy soon enough.
Day Twenty-Two
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
I dunno, uniqueness generally depends on the people you are around, so it really depends on who I'm around. If I were in a group of cows, the fact that I am a person makes me unique. In my apartment I'm unique because my walls are plastered with pictures. In my building I'm unique because I'm one of the few, if not the only English major in the building. However in the English department I am unique, because I live in Jones Hall. So really I don't honestly know what makes me unique. It seriously depends on who I'm with.
I dunno, uniqueness generally depends on the people you are around, so it really depends on who I'm around. If I were in a group of cows, the fact that I am a person makes me unique. In my apartment I'm unique because my walls are plastered with pictures. In my building I'm unique because I'm one of the few, if not the only English major in the building. However in the English department I am unique, because I live in Jones Hall. So really I don't honestly know what makes me unique. It seriously depends on who I'm with.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Day Twenty-One
Day 21- The simple things that make you happy
How fitting that President Monson just spoke on gratitude. :)
Reading the scriptures and prayer, honestly life goes better than.
Hallway parties. I love everyone here!
Working on my novel.
English class.
The smell of the flowers around campus. I slow down every time I catch a whiff of those flowers.
Laughter.
Talking to, or even seeing my best friend.
A clean room.
String cheese.
Giving a massage.
Good music.
Compliments. I have to be careful they don't go to my head though.
Sunshine.
Letters, e-mails, facebook notifications...mostly letters though.
Everything hanging on the walls of my room.
My family.
My friends.
And lots more. I try and always be happy.
How fitting that President Monson just spoke on gratitude. :)
Reading the scriptures and prayer, honestly life goes better than.
Hallway parties. I love everyone here!
Working on my novel.
English class.
The smell of the flowers around campus. I slow down every time I catch a whiff of those flowers.
Laughter.
Talking to, or even seeing my best friend.
A clean room.
String cheese.
Giving a massage.
Good music.
Compliments. I have to be careful they don't go to my head though.
Sunshine.
Letters, e-mails, facebook notifications...mostly letters though.
Everything hanging on the walls of my room.
My family.
My friends.
And lots more. I try and always be happy.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Day Twenty
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future.
Kiera Knightly, and it would be marriage. You see I have it all worked out. I'll take her last name so that my initials will be SMAK which is pretty darn cool. Then I can publish books with a last name like Knightly instead of a boring common last name. I would much rather read a book by an interestingly named author. Just sayin'
Okay but really...there's a girl in my life who I could actually see us working out. I'm comfortable around her, and I think I honestly love her. I never get tired of her, and we're actually getting along really well now, so yeah it could work.
Kiera Knightly, and it would be marriage. You see I have it all worked out. I'll take her last name so that my initials will be SMAK which is pretty darn cool. Then I can publish books with a last name like Knightly instead of a boring common last name. I would much rather read a book by an interestingly named author. Just sayin'
Okay but really...there's a girl in my life who I could actually see us working out. I'm comfortable around her, and I think I honestly love her. I never get tired of her, and we're actually getting along really well now, so yeah it could work.
Day Nineteen
Day 19- Nicknames you have and why do have them
Shan - I dunno why I have this one, I think Laura started it and then it just kinda caught on so that all of my friends called me this through middle school, and it still crops up every now and then.
Shanivis the manly SMA - This comes from the Shwunk. I would call Ivy the Ivis the Smu, and so she retorted by creating that. Than she and I have a child created by magic named Shan-Ivis-the-kind-of-manly-smu-sma. I know it's a terrible name... but what can you do?
Mormon - Well you see I'm a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. One of the few back homes, so they called me that a lot.
Shan - I dunno why I have this one, I think Laura started it and then it just kinda caught on so that all of my friends called me this through middle school, and it still crops up every now and then.
Shanivis the manly SMA - This comes from the Shwunk. I would call Ivy the Ivis the Smu, and so she retorted by creating that. Than she and I have a child created by magic named Shan-Ivis-the-kind-of-manly-smu-sma. I know it's a terrible name... but what can you do?
Mormon - Well you see I'm a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. One of the few back homes, so they called me that a lot.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Day Eighteen
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
-Serve a mission.
-Graduate from Utah State.
-Change someone's life for the better.
-Marry for love and for time and all eternity.
-Have a daughter...and other kids as well. I just really want my own daughter.
-Have the most killer awesome library ever. With lots of old pretty books. Leather-bound preferably but old and pretty is equally fine.
-Teach early morning seminary.
-Write and support my family off my writing.
-Participate in community non-profit theatre.
-Obtain Exaltation someday.
-Serve a mission.
-Graduate from Utah State.
-Change someone's life for the better.
-Marry for love and for time and all eternity.
-Have a daughter...and other kids as well. I just really want my own daughter.
-Have the most killer awesome library ever. With lots of old pretty books. Leather-bound preferably but old and pretty is equally fine.
-Teach early morning seminary.
-Write and support my family off my writing.
-Participate in community non-profit theatre.
-Obtain Exaltation someday.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
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Day Seventeen
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Umm, honestly I don't know. I like being who I am. Sure life isn't always one hundred percent peachy-keen, but I'm who and where I want to be...mostly. There's always room to improve, but I believe that wanting to be someone else is kind of a sign of low self-esteem. I like being me. I don't have high self-esteem, but I like me, so there you have it.
Umm, honestly I don't know. I like being who I am. Sure life isn't always one hundred percent peachy-keen, but I'm who and where I want to be...mostly. There's always room to improve, but I believe that wanting to be someone else is kind of a sign of low self-esteem. I like being me. I don't have high self-esteem, but I like me, so there you have it.
Day Sixteen (Late..Again)
Day 16- 10 anonymous things that you would like to say to people
1. "Holy cow I miss you like nobody's business!! We seriously need to spend pretty much all Christmas break hanging out!"
2. "Thanks for the empty cardboard box, you have no idea how excited I was when I found that on my doorstep. My face seriously did this :D, accept probably a bigger smile."
3. "I'm glad you haven't tried to get us back. I guess you know that you can't beat us stealing your furniture."
4. "Hey, so I think you're attractive and funny...but I'm glad someone else has my heart, because something about you rubs me the wrong way. So I'm gonna have to ask you to stop showing up everywhere I go. Kay, thanks, bye."
5. "Okay we go to the same school, why have I not ever seen you on campus...at all this year?"
6. "I'm sorry I didn't call this summer...I wanted to, but I didn't want to cause us anymore pain. We both knew from day one that I would be leaving in a year, and yet we got to be such amazingly awesome friends. I really want to apologize, but now I don't think you'll ever forgive me. I miss you though Taylor, seriously, I'm sorry." (so much for anonymity there).
7. "You best be coming up for the game. We will cream you, and then I will take you out to ice cream here to make up for your hurt pride. Sound good to you?"
8. "Hey you and me need to practice dancing. Dance party in the hall in five minutes? Okay I'll be there."
9. "Hey so I haven't talked to you in a while. We still are going to go look out over the valley at first snow fall, right? I hope so, because I really am planning on it still. Plus we shook on it, that makes that legit."
10. "Thank you whoever turned off the fire alarm, you are my hero."
1. "Holy cow I miss you like nobody's business!! We seriously need to spend pretty much all Christmas break hanging out!"
2. "Thanks for the empty cardboard box, you have no idea how excited I was when I found that on my doorstep. My face seriously did this :D, accept probably a bigger smile."
3. "I'm glad you haven't tried to get us back. I guess you know that you can't beat us stealing your furniture."
4. "Hey, so I think you're attractive and funny...but I'm glad someone else has my heart, because something about you rubs me the wrong way. So I'm gonna have to ask you to stop showing up everywhere I go. Kay, thanks, bye."
5. "Okay we go to the same school, why have I not ever seen you on campus...at all this year?"
6. "I'm sorry I didn't call this summer...I wanted to, but I didn't want to cause us anymore pain. We both knew from day one that I would be leaving in a year, and yet we got to be such amazingly awesome friends. I really want to apologize, but now I don't think you'll ever forgive me. I miss you though Taylor, seriously, I'm sorry." (so much for anonymity there).
7. "You best be coming up for the game. We will cream you, and then I will take you out to ice cream here to make up for your hurt pride. Sound good to you?"
8. "Hey you and me need to practice dancing. Dance party in the hall in five minutes? Okay I'll be there."
9. "Hey so I haven't talked to you in a while. We still are going to go look out over the valley at first snow fall, right? I hope so, because I really am planning on it still. Plus we shook on it, that makes that legit."
10. "Thank you whoever turned off the fire alarm, you are my hero."
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Day Fifteen
Day 15- Put your iTunes on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
1. "That's What You Get" - Paramore.
2. "Gold Digger" - Glee Cast.
3. "How You Remind Me" - From a mix CD I got
4. "Baptism Hymn" - Jon Schmidt
5. "Spotlight (Twilight Mix)" - MuteMath
6. "My Confession" - Josh Groban
7. "Reclusion" - Anberlin
8. "Beautiful Savior" - Rob Gardner
9. "Shepherd Moons" - Enya
10. "Man on the Moon" - R.E.M.
There you go.
1. "That's What You Get" - Paramore.
2. "Gold Digger" - Glee Cast.
3. "How You Remind Me" - From a mix CD I got
4. "Baptism Hymn" - Jon Schmidt
5. "Spotlight (Twilight Mix)" - MuteMath
6. "My Confession" - Josh Groban
7. "Reclusion" - Anberlin
8. "Beautiful Savior" - Rob Gardner
9. "Shepherd Moons" - Enya
10. "Man on the Moon" - R.E.M.
There you go.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Day Fourteen
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Honestly I've tried to avoid posting real pictures of things, but this group is important to me...so yeah this is us.
Day Thirteen, less late than Day Twelve
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Hey,
Just wondering, what the heck happened this past month. Seriously, I'm really confused. This summer, we had such awesome plans as to what we would be doing over the school year, because you and I would finally be 'you and I.' Now we don't hang out at all. I never see you. You act upset about that, but every time we get together, you just ignore me. If you aren't interested, tell me. I'm sick of this stupid 'hey I miss you, do you want to come to this thing that I'm going to? Oh by the way I'm planning on ignoring you once you get here, because honestly I just like the attention, and really I don't care about you at all. I just care that it looks like I have guys who are interested in me.' No you're not really that bad, I just honestly want you to choose one message to send to me, and keep it at that. Mixed signals...they get kinda old. Just though you should know that.
Hey,
Just wondering, what the heck happened this past month. Seriously, I'm really confused. This summer, we had such awesome plans as to what we would be doing over the school year, because you and I would finally be 'you and I.' Now we don't hang out at all. I never see you. You act upset about that, but every time we get together, you just ignore me. If you aren't interested, tell me. I'm sick of this stupid 'hey I miss you, do you want to come to this thing that I'm going to? Oh by the way I'm planning on ignoring you once you get here, because honestly I just like the attention, and really I don't care about you at all. I just care that it looks like I have guys who are interested in me.' No you're not really that bad, I just honestly want you to choose one message to send to me, and keep it at that. Mixed signals...they get kinda old. Just though you should know that.
Day Twelve....Late, as in WAY late.
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Actually I didn't make a Tumblr...but I found out about it from Rachel Swinney's Tumblr account. That girl seriously cracks me up. I always miss Lil' Miss... whenever I need some sarcastic negative comments I go read her blog, or facebook creep on her, which is only right, because she's a facebook creeper too.
Actually I didn't make a Tumblr...but I found out about it from Rachel Swinney's Tumblr account. That girl seriously cracks me up. I always miss Lil' Miss... whenever I need some sarcastic negative comments I go read her blog, or facebook creep on her, which is only right, because she's a facebook creeper too.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Day Eleven
My favorite book, honestly is Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. It' not really the most popular of J.K. Rowling's series, but honestly it truly is her best. It's the book where Harry is really forced to grow up and handle things by himself. Not until the fifth book was Harry forced into situations where he actually had to grow up.
Honestly I love books where there is some sort of forced growth. I don't know if that's a good thing or not, but I love it. Honestly that's really the main reason that's my favorite in the series. And That's my favorite series, so it just makes sense that that would be my favorite book.
Honestly I love books where there is some sort of forced growth. I don't know if that's a good thing or not, but I love it. Honestly that's really the main reason that's my favorite in the series. And That's my favorite series, so it just makes sense that that would be my favorite book.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
New Favorite Character-Type
Something is fascinating about a character that is a fallen hero. Something in their past has to have changed them to such a major extent that they no longer want to be a hero, but instead go about undoing everything heroic they ever did. It's fascinating to think about.
The fallen hero is also the type that makes a really good bad guy. This person once was trusted by pretty much the whole world. Everyone loved this type of character at some point, and now suddenly they're the bad guy. The way they would interact with others, the way others would interact with them...there's a whole fascinating existence to the fallen hero. Plus being a bad guy, well they're trusted by everyone when they first go bad, and so they have potential to do so much damage. How far would a fallen hero be able to go before being discovered? How much damage would they allow themselves to do when part of them knows that they still have a part of them that cares about the people they are hurting?
Bad guys are always fascinating to explore and wonder about, but the fallen hero...there's so much that can be explored there, and so I'm working on that. I don't have a fallen hero in my novel...but there are other stories going on in my head right now that revolve solely around my fallen hero.
The fallen hero is also the type that makes a really good bad guy. This person once was trusted by pretty much the whole world. Everyone loved this type of character at some point, and now suddenly they're the bad guy. The way they would interact with others, the way others would interact with them...there's a whole fascinating existence to the fallen hero. Plus being a bad guy, well they're trusted by everyone when they first go bad, and so they have potential to do so much damage. How far would a fallen hero be able to go before being discovered? How much damage would they allow themselves to do when part of them knows that they still have a part of them that cares about the people they are hurting?
Bad guys are always fascinating to explore and wonder about, but the fallen hero...there's so much that can be explored there, and so I'm working on that. I don't have a fallen hero in my novel...but there are other stories going on in my head right now that revolve solely around my fallen hero.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Day Ten
Happy Songs: "Come What May" Moulin Rouge, "I'll Make A Man Out of You," Mulan, and "Haven't Met You Yet" Michael Buble "Hey Juliet" LMNT
Sad Songs: "Roxanne" Moulin Rouge "I Heard Him Come" someone random, "I'm Still Breathing" Katy Perry, "Self-Inflicted" Katy Perry, and a lot of random instrumental stuff like Pride and Prejudice and How To Train Your Dragon.
Bored Songs: Generally anything when I'm bored, because being bored puts me in a "meh, whatevs." type mood, so I don't really care.
Hyped: "I gotta Feelin'" Black Eyed Peas, "Tik Tok" Ke$ha, "Your Love is My Drug" Ke$ha, "Don't Stop Believin'" Glee Cast
Mad: "Roxanne" Moulin Rouge (this is just my bad day song/emotion filled song), "Highway to..." well I figure you know the title Glee version...I don't own the AC/DC version...but I want it. "Gives you..." the same word All American Rejects.
Note that there are plenty of other songs that fit into all these categories, these were just some songs that stick out to me right now. I'll probably look at this list later, and be like "what the heck was I thinking?" but for now...
Sad Songs: "Roxanne" Moulin Rouge "I Heard Him Come" someone random, "I'm Still Breathing" Katy Perry, "Self-Inflicted" Katy Perry, and a lot of random instrumental stuff like Pride and Prejudice and How To Train Your Dragon.
Bored Songs: Generally anything when I'm bored, because being bored puts me in a "meh, whatevs." type mood, so I don't really care.
Hyped: "I gotta Feelin'" Black Eyed Peas, "Tik Tok" Ke$ha, "Your Love is My Drug" Ke$ha, "Don't Stop Believin'" Glee Cast
Mad: "Roxanne" Moulin Rouge (this is just my bad day song/emotion filled song), "Highway to..." well I figure you know the title Glee version...I don't own the AC/DC version...but I want it. "Gives you..." the same word All American Rejects.
Note that there are plenty of other songs that fit into all these categories, these were just some songs that stick out to me right now. I'll probably look at this list later, and be like "what the heck was I thinking?" but for now...
Cracks Me Up
So there is a guy here at school with me who is an English major like myself, and he has the funniest shirt...possibly ever. Or maybe it's just funny to English majors, I'm not sure, but when I read it I laughed. Here's what it says, "Your retarded." Just think about it. It's funny, you know it is.
Day Nine
My biggest achievement: I still breathe today. That's huge right now, so that's it. Not glamorous, just the truth.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
I Wonder
How many people like statuses on facebook just to get notifications?
Will you notice that this post just got longer?
What would this world be like without facebook? There was a time when facebook didn't exist, but now...it's hard to imagine what life was like before facebook. Currently my internet won't let me on to facebook, and so I'm just wondering...how should I waste my time now?
Why does the radio not play Katy Perry's good music?
How does our kitchen get so messy in a week?
Will you notice that this post just got longer?
What would this world be like without facebook? There was a time when facebook didn't exist, but now...it's hard to imagine what life was like before facebook. Currently my internet won't let me on to facebook, and so I'm just wondering...how should I waste my time now?
Why does the radio not play Katy Perry's good music?
How does our kitchen get so messy in a week?
Monday, September 20, 2010
We're Guys...We Really Need to Learn to Communicate.
This happens every night. Tyrell gets into bed turns on his laptop, and sits in bed. I get my laptop and climb into my bed, and LEAVE THE LIGHTS ON!!! We still have them on, because, I don't even know we just kind of fail at that, so I gotta fix this whole situation.
Day Eight, Because It Is In Fact 12:00 Here
Short term goals for the month.
Begin and stay with the 40 Days closer to Christ program.
Go on at least one date, must be something cheap though, because I am ridiculously poor.
Go swimming everyday for a week, just to try it out.
Learn to Tango and Foxtrot.
Catch up on homework.
Magnify calling
Read Lysistrata, A Raisin in the Sun, A Doll's House, Step on a Crack, and The Great Gatsby.
Grow closer to roommates.
Gain self-confidence, less belittling remarks about everyone (including and especially self) so that I feel better.
That's about it.
Begin and stay with the 40 Days closer to Christ program.
Go on at least one date, must be something cheap though, because I am ridiculously poor.
Go swimming everyday for a week, just to try it out.
Learn to Tango and Foxtrot.
Catch up on homework.
Magnify calling
Read Lysistrata, A Raisin in the Sun, A Doll's House, Step on a Crack, and The Great Gatsby.
Grow closer to roommates.
Gain self-confidence, less belittling remarks about everyone (including and especially self) so that I feel better.
That's about it.
Day Seven
Okay, so something that has had a big impact on me is the temple. I really want to live so that someday I can go there with someone I love and be sealed to them for time and all eternity. I want a love so epic that we will want to be together even after death. Settling for "til death do you part," well that doesn't work for me. This building has impacted me, because it's made me realize how much love is important to me, and how much I need to work so that I can go there someday to be sealed.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Day Six (On Time)
My all time favorite "superhero" is one of my character's Iolana. She isn't really well known right now though, so I thought I would attach a picture of my second favorite Rogue.
Iolana is pretty much the most awesome kick-butt person with superpowers ever. I don't think she actually qualifies as a superhero though, because she really misses several points most superheros have. She does not have a secret identity, or even another identity, she is always who she is. She is not out to save the world, she is driven more by a need for human contact and a thirst for revenge, so she doesn't always do the most noble thing. She's a fascinating character to get into her head though, and that's why I like her so much.
Rogue is my second favorite, because she also is hungry for human contact, and that's sometimes a fascinating motivation to explore.
Day Five (Late)
This was where my family went on vacation one year...I think after fourth grade, but I actually am not really sure. This was the best vacation I ever had. That was the house we stayed in at Oceanside Oregon. It was awesome!!!! First off if you ever go there, remember that it's Oceanside, not Lincoln City, just sayin. If you end up in Lincoln City you probably went too far, unless you're coming from like Washington (the state) or something.
I remember we played James Bond on those decks, and I remember that my family watched Daria almost every night. The ocean was cold, and there were crabs on the beach that were to small to be seen easily, but big enough to pinch, but I went to the beach a lot anyways.
Tilamook,the cheese factory and the city, was like five minutes away, and they had the most delicious Huckleberry ice cream...possibly ever.
Good times.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Day Four
I really wish I didn't have the habit of planning. I"m sort of a perfectionist when it comes to plans, and life NEVER let's plans happen. No matter how hard you try to live up to a plan, life screws it over entirely. It annoys the heck out of me when I put so much work into planning stuff out and then having them fall apart around you. I had the perfect plan for a while back, and now it looks like hardly any of it will come to pass, despite all of my efforts to try and make it happen. I still plan on being a writer, but the rest...well we'll see if I actually make it where I planned. And yes I've heard the way to get to your goals and plans is to pan a way to get there. Well I did that, but what do you do when life makes those plans fall apart. Plan for your plans to fail? That makes no sense, and that's why I wish I didn't make plans as much. Or at least I wouldn't get so upset when my plans fall apart.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Day Three
This would be a picture of me and my friends. We're pretty much awesome. No I'm not crazy, I actually believe that I'm a lot like Hiccup, and I have friends like most of the other characters, so there you go. This picture means awesomeness to me! Favorite movie ever, comes out a month from yesterday on DVD! Cannot wait!!!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
You Better Be Using Those to Eat.
Seriously people, the chopsticks in the cafeteria are a privilege not a right. Please no more 15 minute drum solos, I think I'll go crazy next time.
Day Two
5 Things I like about me:
1. I think I am funny. Not hilarious, but I can generally get people to laugh at things I say or at least get the ornery people to crack a smile. Something about me seems to put people at ease, and I like that.
2. I have a passion. I think passionless people are boring, but when you have a passion, you are a lot more exciting. My passion is writing, and I live to write and entertain.
3. I care about people. I love to listen to people, and I love to do whatever I can to brighten people's days when I know life isn't going so hot for them. Generally I think that's a good character trait to have.
4. I'm sort of tall in the groups I hang out with. I noticed how much I like being tall when I got into my dorm and discovered I was the second shortest, it's not so fun when you think of yourself as short, but I'm somewhere in the range of 6'1'' or 6'2''.
5. I'm fairly book smart, so classes are generally easy for me. I hope it stays that way in college, but we'll see as time goes by here.
5 Things I dislike about me:
1. I don't ever ask people to clarify. I don't know what it is, but it probably has something to do with my excessive amounts of pride
2. I've always been thrown into the 'just friends' zone with girls. It gets kind of old after a while. Sometimes I get taken out of it for a grand total of five seconds so said girl can check to see what it would be like, and then she throws me back into the same zone as before.
3. I can't dance, like at all actually. I'm working on it, but we'll see how well it works out.
4. I let people tell me what I can and cannot do, I never let myself risk trying to fail, because people say I can't do some things, and therefore, I can't do some things. Way to go me.
5. I'm not a very good planner. I should have done this blog in reverse order so that I could end writing on a positive note, but instead I just totally attacked my self esteem. This blog did to my self-esteem what a red pen on an essay does to an eighth grader...not really, but I really should have done it backwards.
1. I think I am funny. Not hilarious, but I can generally get people to laugh at things I say or at least get the ornery people to crack a smile. Something about me seems to put people at ease, and I like that.
2. I have a passion. I think passionless people are boring, but when you have a passion, you are a lot more exciting. My passion is writing, and I live to write and entertain.
3. I care about people. I love to listen to people, and I love to do whatever I can to brighten people's days when I know life isn't going so hot for them. Generally I think that's a good character trait to have.
4. I'm sort of tall in the groups I hang out with. I noticed how much I like being tall when I got into my dorm and discovered I was the second shortest, it's not so fun when you think of yourself as short, but I'm somewhere in the range of 6'1'' or 6'2''.
5. I'm fairly book smart, so classes are generally easy for me. I hope it stays that way in college, but we'll see as time goes by here.
5 Things I dislike about me:
1. I don't ever ask people to clarify. I don't know what it is, but it probably has something to do with my excessive amounts of pride
2. I've always been thrown into the 'just friends' zone with girls. It gets kind of old after a while. Sometimes I get taken out of it for a grand total of five seconds so said girl can check to see what it would be like, and then she throws me back into the same zone as before.
3. I can't dance, like at all actually. I'm working on it, but we'll see how well it works out.
4. I let people tell me what I can and cannot do, I never let myself risk trying to fail, because people say I can't do some things, and therefore, I can't do some things. Way to go me.
5. I'm not a very good planner. I should have done this blog in reverse order so that I could end writing on a positive note, but instead I just totally attacked my self esteem. This blog did to my self-esteem what a red pen on an essay does to an eighth grader...not really, but I really should have done it backwards.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Dirty Copier
Day 01- 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- 5 things you like and 5 things you dislike about yourself
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends and what the picture means to you
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to and the memories that follow
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has had a big impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Biggest achievement in your eyes
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Favorite book and why
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iTunes on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- 10 anonymous things that you would like to say to people
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have and why do have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- The simple things that make you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you are craving
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What do you think about your friends?
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 30- Who are you?
Day 1: I'll try and make these things I haven't written before.
1. I'm a sucker for brown hair combined with any eye color but brown. I will never sing the song "Brown Eyed Girl," because throughout all of my life I've never fallen for a brown eyed girl...ever. Of course personality is important, but all the girls I've fallen for have had the perfect combination of personality and above mentioned eye and hair colored.
2. I don't brag about myself enough to strangers. I fear that I'll come off as conceited if I say anything good about myself, so when people ask if I'm a good writer I say "I'm alright." That needs to end, seriously I am an AMAZING writer, and people need to know it. No one is going to buy a book that's only "alright."
3. My back up occupation, that I actually sort of am interested in, like a lot, is massage therapy. The only problem is I have an overwhelming need for modesty, so we'll see how that goes.
4. I don't actually want to be filthy rich. I mean I'm not against the idea, but it's not anywhere near the top of my priorities, if I have love for my job and a family behind me that I can support, I will be far happier than if I live with buckets of money.
5. I actually liked the movie Moulin Rouge...not LOVED, but I liked it. It wasn't the cleanest movie ever (actually there's a good distance between the two), but it was still well written, and Nicole Kidman and Ewan McGregor were amazing in their roles, so it was good there.
6. My favorite character I've written about was one not based on myself, but based off one of my friends. Her name is Iolana, and she is by far the most complex and deadly character I have ever written about, and I keep adding new things to her story, because I love working with her so much.
7. Most nights I can't get to sleep unless I run over my story in my head. I always like to think of what my characters could be doing at that moment, and it helps me get to sleep. Weird I know, but it helps me get to know these character so well.
8. I LOVE Jones Hall. There are no strings attached to this love, and it is not a crush. This is full out love. Jones Hall is about the coolest place you could ever live if you came here, so yeah I love this place...like a lot.
9. I like sleeping with my face towards the wall. It might have something to do with the fact that it's darker facing the wall because I can't see my roommate's laptop screen anymore.
10. My favorite classic I've ever read was Kate Chopin's "The Awakening." It was perhaps one of the best written books I've ever read. It wasn't too long, and it was awesome to analyze. I feel like I got more analysis pleasure out of that book than any other book, except for maybe "The Great Gatsby."
11. I gave my first Priesthood Blessing Sunday. It was a terrifying and amazing experience. I hope that it was just a good experience to the girl I gave the blessing to, but I'm not actually sure. I loved how close I felt to the Holy Ghost though when I mentioned the authority of the holy Melchizedek Priesthood I hold. There was a confirmation that I did in fact have the authority to stand in for Christ in that situation.
12. I'm good at small talk, but terrible at serious conversation. I like to entertain, and not have to share my innermost thoughts with people in person.
13. I seriously am technologically impaired. I might as well be 80 the way I use technology. Someone has to explain how to use iPods, phones, and most TVs to me before I can actually do anything. It's pretty pathetic.
14. I'm not ready to grow up yet, but I'm in college and on my own. I don't know how I'll ever learn to grow up, but I guess right now I'm learning the hard way.
15. There was a time in my life when I did not want to serve a mission. You'll be happy to know that now I want to serve one, because I want to serve one, not because other people want me to. I seriously cannot wait until I can fill out my papers and send them in!
Day 02- 5 things you like and 5 things you dislike about yourself
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends and what the picture means to you
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to and the memories that follow
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has had a big impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Biggest achievement in your eyes
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Favorite book and why
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iTunes on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- 10 anonymous things that you would like to say to people
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have and why do have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- The simple things that make you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you are craving
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What do you think about your friends?
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 30- Who are you?
Day 1: I'll try and make these things I haven't written before.
1. I'm a sucker for brown hair combined with any eye color but brown. I will never sing the song "Brown Eyed Girl," because throughout all of my life I've never fallen for a brown eyed girl...ever. Of course personality is important, but all the girls I've fallen for have had the perfect combination of personality and above mentioned eye and hair colored.
2. I don't brag about myself enough to strangers. I fear that I'll come off as conceited if I say anything good about myself, so when people ask if I'm a good writer I say "I'm alright." That needs to end, seriously I am an AMAZING writer, and people need to know it. No one is going to buy a book that's only "alright."
3. My back up occupation, that I actually sort of am interested in, like a lot, is massage therapy. The only problem is I have an overwhelming need for modesty, so we'll see how that goes.
4. I don't actually want to be filthy rich. I mean I'm not against the idea, but it's not anywhere near the top of my priorities, if I have love for my job and a family behind me that I can support, I will be far happier than if I live with buckets of money.
5. I actually liked the movie Moulin Rouge...not LOVED, but I liked it. It wasn't the cleanest movie ever (actually there's a good distance between the two), but it was still well written, and Nicole Kidman and Ewan McGregor were amazing in their roles, so it was good there.
6. My favorite character I've written about was one not based on myself, but based off one of my friends. Her name is Iolana, and she is by far the most complex and deadly character I have ever written about, and I keep adding new things to her story, because I love working with her so much.
7. Most nights I can't get to sleep unless I run over my story in my head. I always like to think of what my characters could be doing at that moment, and it helps me get to sleep. Weird I know, but it helps me get to know these character so well.
8. I LOVE Jones Hall. There are no strings attached to this love, and it is not a crush. This is full out love. Jones Hall is about the coolest place you could ever live if you came here, so yeah I love this place...like a lot.
9. I like sleeping with my face towards the wall. It might have something to do with the fact that it's darker facing the wall because I can't see my roommate's laptop screen anymore.
10. My favorite classic I've ever read was Kate Chopin's "The Awakening." It was perhaps one of the best written books I've ever read. It wasn't too long, and it was awesome to analyze. I feel like I got more analysis pleasure out of that book than any other book, except for maybe "The Great Gatsby."
11. I gave my first Priesthood Blessing Sunday. It was a terrifying and amazing experience. I hope that it was just a good experience to the girl I gave the blessing to, but I'm not actually sure. I loved how close I felt to the Holy Ghost though when I mentioned the authority of the holy Melchizedek Priesthood I hold. There was a confirmation that I did in fact have the authority to stand in for Christ in that situation.
12. I'm good at small talk, but terrible at serious conversation. I like to entertain, and not have to share my innermost thoughts with people in person.
13. I seriously am technologically impaired. I might as well be 80 the way I use technology. Someone has to explain how to use iPods, phones, and most TVs to me before I can actually do anything. It's pretty pathetic.
14. I'm not ready to grow up yet, but I'm in college and on my own. I don't know how I'll ever learn to grow up, but I guess right now I'm learning the hard way.
15. There was a time in my life when I did not want to serve a mission. You'll be happy to know that now I want to serve one, because I want to serve one, not because other people want me to. I seriously cannot wait until I can fill out my papers and send them in!
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